Friday, November 29, 2013

Listenin' to  " A thousand miles now"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=08OBhuxYgzo



Read more: Vanessa Carlton - A Thousand Miles Lyrics | MetroLyrics 



Okay, I've got a feeling that my texts will be highlighted in white


Anyways,
im doing work w Eiris and Min Ru @ level 3now. ahah while waiting for cello to start,
im supposed to do draw but Ive got a feel to update.

Hmm, bought Art Tease Cinnamon Milk Tea today :))

Yay, and oh, bought night walk tix w Eiris and Winnie

Hmmm


LOL hope next Friday can go , cus hanging out with Xin Man dear on Saturday :>



OHHHH and Dad gave me his phone :) Yay S3 <3 :="" baby="" full="" haha="" love="" of=""> must take care of it now

LOLOL now got secondary cammy can zi lian :>

SORRY
 ahahha


maybe I shouldn't miss u, but I am. why? I'm sick of falling into love. or into infatuation for that matter, 

the insecurities and burden it brings, so not worth my time and emotion.

I don't wanna hurt anymore.

 


 
only time will tell yeah?

有缘无分的结果
两次
就够了
再多次只能把我伤得更重
我也体验够了

是时间不适当吧



i should get back to work

Omg the song im listenin to now...
suits my mood Perfectly.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O_Iiiso9DxA



"The Last Goodbye"




Good
Bye.

Till

We


Meet Again.
  


i played a melody at 2:53 PM
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Monday, November 25, 2013

Responsibility

I bet you've heard it so many times, enough to make it seem almost repulsive or foreign because it's used to often with people who has good attributes, or maybe it comes up every time you get scolded , or in any moral story, responsibility is one of the most common value to be shared and talked about.

And this "Responsibility" has been so in my life and out of my life at the same time.

Ways of which this word is so heavy on my life is that

My parents constantly remind me of my responsibility as the eldest sister as a "role model" to my siblings.

My tutor and aunts telling me that I can be more responsible by helping my sis w her grades.

My peers and teacher constantly telling me to be more responsible of my own assignments and attitude towards my grades

My responsibility to help out with the house chores because I'm old enough to (??)

General reminders of being responsible of my own words be it promises or remarks

Being responsible of my own belongings so I wont misplace them

Being responsible for the choices you make, therefore taking into account your actions and the consequences

Being responsible of being able to discern, maybe?

Being responsible of how you carry yourself in front of others.


Then from this year onwards, I was tasked w being responsible with another task, to be responsible with my earning , savings, spendings.

Being responsible for your happiness because u can choose to be happy (some says),

being responsible with planning ur time wisely.

Responsible responsible responsible


respond. does responsible means the ability to respond to situations?  The duty to respond? Being in charge to respond /to act towards a situation?



My responsibility to know that I'm responsible for all this


is it really?

But stating all these down just makes me aware how responsibility is so out of my life, like to me , other would see me reacting to it as

"Responsibility? Is that a foreign language? Doesn't sound appetizing"

Nah, im not that far back, but ive been pushing responsibility away as far as I am concerned.

Responsibility, hey it's one powerful thing.

I don't wanna be bothered by it.

I don't wanna face it, it's gonna hurt me, it's gonna be heavy, it's a burden, ,it's gonna bring me down, it's gonna make me go into an anxiety states of mind, it's stressful.

why, would I ever want to carry this load that is not gonna do good to me?



But see, it shapes a person

these thoughts shaped me into a coward, a coward that wasn't willing nor ready to face reality
I know reality
it aint pretty

but because I lack responsibility
shit's back firing,

and then u see behind the front of an irresponsible person,

it is always selfishness,

unfailing selfishness

and to think ive tried so hard not to be selfish, pushed it away, forced it aside, tried to hide,
it comes back around
and found me anyway

how am I gonna love ,truly love the people around me this way?

if im being so selfish and irresponsible.

how am I  able to love?



Lack of this burden of responsibility

caused me worse problems than ever before

it causes me to take things a little too lightly,

never minding a lot

even though I was constantly over thinking.



Harsh words, flow out from this quick tongue of mine,

and I felt like it was never my responsibility to keep my words in check or clarify before it's to late.


my words ARE my Responsibility


being so over relaxed about things that are considered important, I pushed it aside , as long I felt good about it, it should be right,
but hell no,
 that's not how it works

when des responsibility when really needed ever feels right?

haha

#truf man #truf


My attendants , grades, school , friends , are MY RESPONSIBILITY.

why should I let someone else worry bout my stuff?


God gave me this bunch of groups of lives and activities because He Trusts that I can be responsible enough to handle them.

I don't wanna let him down.

Revelation for tonight, baby.

Thanks to my Dad,

I'm reminded again.

Training in Progress:)






God, humble me , and teach me responsibility.














i played a melody at 10:05 PM
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Thursday, November 21, 2013

This be short but Cherie gave this to me as a reminder when im anxious,

and im touched and comforted by it :)


It will be possible, not by my own strength, but with God's :)

 "6Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. 7And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."


Philippians 4:6-7


God Bless Ya'll:)



Jesus loves you

aahahah!


i played a melody at 2:38 PM
c0mments I really find that Gentleness is really important,
okay maybe im saying this cause I feel like sometimes people are too selfish with their gentleness?

I mean i was talking with my sister about thoughts and my follow up yesterday


which brings me to the point of gentleness

"Let your gentleness be known to all men. The Lord is at hand." - Philippians 4:5

Maybe towards strangers, people you'll only meet once you can afford to be gentle, but once you're close to that person, that doesn't mean that u can be any less gentle with yours words.

Well, yeah, you are closer to that person you may have the privilege of calling her names and making fun of her and on both sides, both have mutual understanding of the situation.

But sometimes, I  don't know, I feel like people lose the respect for their close friends, and ignores about being gentle to them when people are too warmed up with one another.. and that sucks.. a lot.


like maybe between married couples, the guy may have lost his initial gentleness to his spouse just because they are married and both are bound. and that's really sad, where did the respect and cherishing of that partner go? or were your Gentleness fake and insincere? not genuine

and I see that in many many relationships, and that is one of the most common problems that leads to unnecessary fights, bickers and conflicts. People, the forgot to be gentle.

They take things for granted. Don't count their blessings. Forget thank, getting to comfortable with where they are at.

Yet at the same time I know that u still have to stay firm, a balance on both no?

Being firm isn't so much about being oversensitive about everything,
it just means to draw a reasonable line and standing your ground


being firm doesn't mean ignoring, it's more about being open to opinions and understanding but doing what you know is morally right..


Being firm doesn't mean not being gentle

Being firm never means being harsh

Firm isn't the opposite of Gentle


You can be firm yet gentle,

Sturdy :)

Like a person holding onto a newly born child,

holding it firmly so they wouldn't lose hold of it or drop it

but at the same time, gentle so they wont hurt the child

they wont bruise the child

Because that person is dear to you,

so you'll be firm and gentle towards them


It's just a reminder, because it's so easy for people to be harsh cus it comes easily , from worry, anxiety

so easy for people to be "firm"


yet they forget to gentle.



But im not saying that everybody is like that, ive got friends who are ever so gentle, ALWAYS.

and it's such a comfort to have them :)


smile more guys, that's one way to stir up gentleness







Tied plaits today aahahah see you around!




i played a melody at 2:34 PM
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Wednesday, November 20, 2013

so slowly, I thought things were getting into hand and slightly under control

To me, things are flowing slowly timely, into place, but I know there are so many I have yet to catch up with

to me, im satisfied, I think im moving I think Im pacing

but to them, im still, not moving, stuck, not progressing not managing not budging not listening not doing anything about anything.

is it so?

 or is it because im satisfied with too little , too in my own word to notice that im not at all going anywhere with what im doing,

maybe what im doing s not enough

but recently, ive been searching for peace

but how do I?
 I constantly anxious and worrying

but stopping an resting doesn't seem to be helping

all it eve does it eat up more and more of my time, causing me to be more anxious

im not constant

im not moving

yet, slacking gives me the delusion that im stable and peaceful


which is never the case

Now im in Starbuck at buona vista doing GDP ,

QR code

very very motivated by my friends,  (min ru and kim for supporting me and pushing me on on twitter, I really really feel supported like with their reminder, I will not backslide in my work,

I wont let their effort and concern go to waste,
I'll show them what they did was of a really great purpose

it pushed and moved someone like me


but all this are just thoughts and words now,

I have got to put them into actions and start doing my work really really do it,



cus I really don't want to loose and let down friends like this I don't want another round of feeling like my friends are gonna leave me

I don't want disappoint people time and again

I don't want to lose anymore friends that are dear to me



back to work now :)

updates again next time:>



i played a melody at 2:31 PM
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Sunday, November 17, 2013

sometimes I really want to believe that there are unselfish reasons for people who made seemingly selfish decisions



I want to believe

tt you had your reasons

unselfish decisions

but if u were just playin me

for ur recreation


then shame on me

for fallin

ever so easily

on you

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aAEQt7wq44w&list=ALYL4kY05133rB8859JTSvJdJhbUgRbMuM





i played a melody at 11:24 PM
c0mments You know what?

maybe im just that not worth

 not worth of anybody's concern care, forgiveness

you're just a stranger

yet u make me feel so useless


how the hell is that possible


I feel so dumb

I don't know what im crying for

but I really feel really really stupid for believing you

lies lies and more lies


aren't you the same?

why should I care

why the hell should I care?


why the hell should I feel sorry

I feel so dejected

im nothing to you


NOTHING


so it shouldn't bother you

if you're nothing to me too


why did I even bother, or try hard in the first place

I actually saw it coming.. what the hell was wrong with me what the flippin hell :(


I love being happy but I just cant help but to feel sad

but at least, now I know im nothing..


NOTHING AT ALL

To you

so now, let me move on, to be Someone to Everybody else and Nothing/No one to you

it's better this way.. at least I know now...


it sucks but

if it's the truth


I have no fuckin problem of accepting it.

no room for you stranger

no room for you




i played a melody at 8:30 PM
c0mments and yep, GB camp today helped out w the amazing race and got a damn cute minion annual camp tee shirt, but so sad I cant wear it to the camp fire cus ive got assignments and I didn't get to eat 18 chefs w Clare , Cherie and Janessa , I wna cry Q-Q Eep

Ahahha but it was damn awesome seeing my juniors again ^^

ahhh, ahahah awww I feel so sadddd


aww

but cant be helped lah hor, busy gal is busy w assignments :((


OH anyway, I brought my parents to church today cus it's in Chinese and Davy Liu was speaking today ahaha:)


but this week wasn't as impactful as any other week's talk

Still stuck with maya.. sial.. and I haven't even started with my turntable.. hmm :/

OH WEL


i played a melody at 7:37 PM
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Saturday, November 16, 2013

Okay just a lil short update on the day :) and all the stuff so far HAHAH



alright, I just came back from the prep for GB's Amazing Race like 2 hours ago and slacked until one hour ago then started on Maya

ahah And my mense came today, finally, after 2 months.. do you know the relive I feel??


hahahah okay tmi but that was necessary!

then went to rekkie @ Bishan Park w Clare, Cherie and Janessa
 ahhaa
 then ranted to Clare
abt

you know..

she's like the only one I can totally say all these things to..

heh missed them all :)

then we popeyed and went our ways


I think my shoes are spoiling :((


2 weeks only nehhh.. :((


OH

 and I followed @big_ben_clock on Twitter wah, the most amazing tweeter account ever <3 p="">

ahahha BONG BONG BONG BONG BONG


one is coming up in like 5 minutes


then i'll be meeting Christabel later for dinner before me her and Eiris goes Sota for the performance by our seniors :))



OUUHHH
 and I lost my $5 I brought out today :(( but I saw my juniors ^^

but our squad kena scolding by mdm for some chicken bone thing :((

tmr will be the day YAYAYYAY

thennn
thheeeen
 im bringing my dad and mum to church HAHA who would've ever thought eh! Quite excited:))

Now listenin- Rend Collection Experiment ; Build Your Kingdom Here :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sbdJXKqVgtg&list=RD2RAUcczfMYE

the MV is damn pleasing to the eye ahahah :) I guess that's all for now, cant wait for the next BONG



Ouh and I met Joanne ytd and she helped me planning and intro me to the google calendar , Quite cool lei can send u text messages de ^^ heh:)


so thankful for her to make time to help me with planning  REALLY needed it :>>

okay I Bonged :) BYYEEE




 


i played a melody at 5:01 PM
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Friday, November 15, 2013

That's how im feeling,
dragged around by the lack of time,

that sucked, being rushed around being stop being limited form completing hat I have and need to do because my time is so strained

my dad keeps threatening me to sleep early

so I cant do anything

and when I can, I keep thinking i'll have the time, until I really don't
then i'll panic

I mean
I get tired too
 ill sleep when im tired

stop stopping me

stop putting limits

I cant work at all like that

I cant do work at home like that

and if I start staying out late in school to do work

you'd say something again


nothing works right with u

now, I didn't complete anything

and im gonna get into big trouble, be it grades or promises wise

it's gonna get so much more screwed up

cus im getting frantic and worked up on what to do first or what not to


I just cannot do anything like that, I don't get motivated if im being stopped everytime I start

I cant get my drive going

I just get put down time and again time and again

and u think u know whats better for me

and I think u do too

but u don't stand in my shoes

not even a moment to understand what im feeling

u stand in ur shoes and care for me

but don't u see that is nt how it works?


that's never how it works.

if u really cared from me, u'd try to stand from my pov to see how im trying to manage it all

the least I need is extra pressure from u on my time

but maybe u couldn't and I'll understand that

but this will never get me anywhere

how does caring for me in ur pov works?

that's just really really

not effective at all

but people do that all the time don't they?

they see things from their pov and ridicule and judge and mock people on the choices they made, never trying to understand what choices they have when they are in that person's position

sometimes

people don't REALLY know how to sympathize


another unproductive day

foreboding misunderstandings..
:/




i played a melody at 12:07 AM
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Wednesday, November 13, 2013

URM.. I think im always making stupid decisions for all my life, hahah or im just being too vulnerable in a wrong way,

I should really stop going on to social media hahaha


argh


gonna search for a song for Gen Ed, maybe using sara barailles songs? or paramour, or foo fighters or 30sec to mars ahah


omg so many things not done D:

drinking umeshu now ahah so warmmmmm :>


lolol reminds me of my ex.. he doesn't like kissing me whenever I drink, so I gave up a few glasses of plum wine cus of him hahha damnnn, but the funny thing is that he also drinks lor, walao still complain hahahhh

He's abit like my dad, drink a lil then will turn red ahahaha damn, oh well, I guess I could say im over him alr, ahah that cold cold bastard.

but if he wasn't cold, it would've been harder for me to let him go.. so yeah , hahah

ARGH

I should really get on w work, be blogging when I have something to say again




OH OH.. eiris went to take money and my DMIT card outta my wallet and passed it to Winnie..

._. I am annoyed when things like this happens

and this is not the first


oh and finally got to talked to crystal today ahha form class 01:)


i played a melody at 10:22 PM
c0mments well, I guess I missed out on something I should've said ,
I mean,
I wanted to say
"can we still be friends?"
but that seemed kind of unnecessary

cus all I did was say sorry
for doing anything that may have caused our awkwardness

hah

I don't know,

it didn't seem appropriate to
ask if we could still be friends then

as much as I wanted to,
that wasn't the main point I called

all I wanted him to know is that I know im partially at fault for all this
cause it takes 2 hands to clap,

and it doesn't matter if we aren't back to friends cause

I think I've done all I can

 well, at least im feeling much at ease now.
 I hope


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r0idI4WiGSg

So this is what you meant
When you said that you were spent?
And now it's time to build from the bottom of the pit right to the top
Don't hold back
Packing my bags and giving the Academy a rain check

I don't ever wanna let you down
I don't ever wanna leave this town
'Cause after all this city never sleeps at night

It's time to begin, isn't it?
I get a little bit bigger but then I'll admit
I'm just the same as I was
Now don't you understand?
I'm never changing who I am

So this is where you fell
And I am left to sell
The path to Heaven runs through miles of clouded Hell right to the top
Don't look back
Turning to rags and giving the commodities a rain check

I don't ever wanna let you down
I don't ever wanna leave this town
'Cause after all this city never sleeps at night

It's time to begin, isn't it?
I get a little bit bigger but then I'll admit
I'm just the same as I was
Now don't you understand?
I'm never changing who I am

It's time to begin, isn't it?
I get a little bit bigger but then I'll admit
I'm just the same as I was
Now don't you understand?
I'm never changing who I am

This road never looked so lonely
This house doesn't burn down slowly
To ashes! 
To ashes! 

It's time to begin, isn't it?
I get a little bit bigger but then I'll admit
I'm just the same as I was
Now don't you understand?
I'm never changing who I am

It's time to begin, isn't it?
I get a little bit bigger but then I'll admit
I'm just the same as I was
Now don't you understand?
I'm never changing who I am


OKAY I better get back to doing 3DF haha



ahhhh, meh :/


i played a melody at 10:34 AM
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Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Okay, first off, I wanna apologize for not blogging to update the previous post as promised but ive got something more current to talk about


I called

yes I did, I called

Kevin

I mean, it was a now or never thing

if I wasn't going to call,

I was never.

texting is just bullshit insincere

and I doubt i'll be able to ask him to meet me
(and I didn't have the need to anyway)

And guess what?

I was glad he picked up
I was glad he didn't sound cold at all

although what I said was so much lesser than intended.

at least I did,

given the fact that I was scared as hell

scared as hell this wasn't something I should do
scared as hell this wasn't the right timing to call
scared as hell he wouldn't pick up
scared as hell if he did ,I would blank out
scared as hell I didn't put through what I intended to say
scared as hell I'd break down

But of all I wanted to tell him about,

I guess it was summed up in my short sorry

I knew what I wanted to say
but I didn't know how to say them

trying to salvage a friendship
is hard
esp
when i'm such a prideful and ignorant fool

esp when I may not even deserve that friendship

maybe I was doing something stupid
but stupid is all I have been doing.
might as well do it,
wouldn't hurt shit

and I would have regretted more on not calling than calling

it's a risk I would take
for friends

the result doesn't matter

at least I did follow my heart and mind


mhmm, at least my mind is off this thing.
I guess im more at ease now

well yeah

not gonna go on social media if possible,
for the night

God, I've done all I can, it may not be the best but this is just the most I can do out of my state, the rest is up to you.

Thank you for the courage
Thank you for being the perfect person I could confide to
Thank you for listening
Thank you for just being who you are



__________________________________________________________________________________



okay on a lighter note, my ear hole is slightly infected thanks to the easily corroded earring
ahaha so thankful the ear hole didn't fully close so I managed to slide the earrings back into it without feeling pain

mhmm

there's prayers meeting today but I didn't go
my parents wouldn't allow anyway
and i would be stand there feeling lika awkward penguin at some point of time (but tt's not the main point)


today was kinda cool, in the morning we had 3DF and Alfred taught us how to use mud box, cant wait though I haven't even finish the head and the uv unwrapping (cry)

hah then it was Gen Ed , Wan Ning's rabbit, Norman's bracelet ,Jun's nail clipper , Joash's dog allergy, Christabel's Diary , Qin Yan's TCM, Eugene's robotics, Jia Qi's trip to Japan, Izyan's rugby cca, Kev's cca


yeap that's it
and I have to find a song or art piece for the next presentation
LOOOLLL

and then we have TANI

head rotation, gonna stay back tmr AGAIN
(oh its called a turn table)
asfghjkl

hahah


ohh I should about yesterday today:)


YEAAP we had vaf and we made a video short comedy video ahahha

awkward awkward and embarrassing but hey I had the funnest time of my life!!! hahaha


okay I hate the fact that it takes so long for the video to load on blogger so I think i'll just give the link here




//then I knew I could never out run
nor out wait
this nagging conscious
yeah, i'm scared
to face rejection
confrontation
or the plain truth
but hey, this is life and I'm 17
how bad can I regret doing something that I would regret not doing just because I was afraid of being judge or the inevitable outcome?
im still young , so many regrets to have and mistakes to make, might as well do those that are worth it no? :)
yeah, it may hurt a while
but I wont regret it :)//



anyway here's the video link, but you're only able to view it if im friends w you on FB lol haha

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=10202536147073327&comment_id=6972379&offset=0&total_comments=2&notif_t=mentions_comment



okay my eyes are still swelling from crying a little just now,
feeling so tired now haha

Background song : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-dziczpYl94

Jesus Culture has some great songs!

oh oh and on Monday, I had dinner w Winnie and Cassandra whaahaah best time ever WAHHHH

wah abit scary... internet got problem..








i played a melody at 11:54 PM
c0mments some sorta roller coaster ride eh??
 guess what? today during VAF we did a video ahhaha im laughing too funny!

Introducing the VAF group!!




Made a hilarious vid , but i'll post that another time.. Dad forcing me to sleep.. sigh how the fuck am I supposed to complete my assignments now.. soooooooo fucked sometimes :/


and then I 'll update on today LOL



i played a melody at 12:50 AM
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Monday, November 11, 2013

"Are we singing the same sad song?
Are we still in tune?

maybe you were long gone
leavin me
missin you"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FDAm-yirkew


I would,
I would blog about this,
but
whats the use

why am I
doing this to myself again

it's ridiculous


this is ridiculous



i played a melody at 2:06 PM
c0mments Like now I think I have time.. im not doing any work..
okay
I am
trying
 to chiong
 the proposal for GB
and I have to do one for Dawn as well

And I have 3dF and GDP and draw to finish

and I didn't even do the story board to take part in the animation group in church.

I think the deadline is already over:(
oh well

I have too much on my hands any way



Sharlin is teachin' about creating visual QR code

I cant even concentrate properly

ARGH

listenin to lady gaga I don't even know why

I should listen to greyson chance instead hahah

hmmm my life.. is screwed in my own hands ahaha



shiiiiiiiiiiiiiit better get bac to work





i played a melody at 12:12 PM
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Saturday, November 9, 2013

Oka haha and guess what? it's 12.43 am now.. and yes, im blogging.. LOL umm
I know I should be sleeping but I've got this feel to blog now, especially with Ed Sheeran's I see fire singing sweetly in my ear.. and it's such a cool night. Feeling low yet feeling not much. Just drunk on Ed :)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uf8Fwiy0Bkc

Oh, misty eye of the mountain below
Keep careful watch of my brother's souls
And should the sky be filled with fire and smoke
Keep watching over Durin's sons

If this is to end in fire
Then we should burn together
Watch the flames climb high into the night
Calling out for the rope, stand by and we will
Watch the flames burn over and oh
The mountains sigh

And if we should die tonight
Then we should all die together
Raise a glass of wine
For the last time
Calling out for the rope
Prepare as we will
Watch the flames burn over and o'er
The mountains sigh

Desolation comes upon the sky

Now I see fire
Inside the mountains
I see fire
Burning the trees
And I see fire
Hollow and souls
And I see fire
Blood in the breeze
And I hope that you remember me

Oh, should my people fall in
Surely I'll do the same
Come finding mountain holes
We got too close to the flame
Calling out for the rope
Hold fast and we will
Watch the flames burn and over
The mountains sigh

Desolation comes upon the sky

Now I see fire
Inside the mountains
I see fire
Burning the trees
And I see fire
Hallow and souls
And I see fire
Blood in the breeze
And I hope that you remember me

And if the night is burning
I will cover my eyes
For if the dark returns then
My brothers will die
And as the skies falling down
It crashed into this lonely town
And with that shadow on the ground
I hear my people screaming out

Now I see fire
Inside the mountains
I see fire
Burning the trees
And I see fire
Hallow and souls
And I see fire
Blood in the breeze

I see fire (fire)
And I see fire (fire)
And I see fire (fire)
And I see fire (burn on and on and mountains sigh)



I think it sounds a lot like Wayfaring Stranger as well, but still its sounds really gooood.

Today was separated into 3 parts I guess

My morning was spent on doing GDP, trying to get my graphic out for the four sets of colors ive chosen
But im still not done w it though

I almost, almost flared again today , God.
I mean, I was doing my school work like I know I don't have much time left ( and ive been wasting a large amount of them on unproductiveness)
then my Dad just had to add on to that stress I was feeling.
i was to head out in less then 2 hours time and my dad suddenly had the need for me to vaccum the kitchen
while i was doing school work
and he said he'll vaccum the living room.
and then hating on me when i said i wanted to do the living room instead
and he kept on going on about now im at home and not at school i should help out more on house chores..
and that he never saw me doing any

i was so filled w irritation but i held on ..i didn't want the same damn thing to happen

all i could come up to keep me sane was that he didn't understand my situation
that he didn't understand that what i was doing was actually school work
and that art wasn't considered school work to him
he really thinks ive got nothing better to do
 so i controlled

but i was flaring so much inside
that angst was not comfortable at all

I wanted to leave everything aside and wait for him to go out for breakfast before i start vacuuming but he was hanging around a little longer than i expected him to
so i had to
vacuum
and the magic of housechores
calmed me down

which is so contradicting
 because i was cursing in my mind on so many things, and it was leveled by the peace of doing house chores
i wanted to laugh at the contradiction but haha  i was feeling too contradicted bother to choose how to react

but then after i was done
and went back to  doing my work

my Dad asked me if i was doing my school work
and i told him i was

 and i really felt thankful

Thankful that he realized i was actually doing school work
thankful that i didn't react in a really disrespectful manner moments ago
Thankful that something like Tuesday's night drama didn't have to repeat itself on Friday afternoon

Then in the afternoon, met up with Sabapathy Question for a Karaoke session

Haahaha sang our throats sooorreee but damn was most of the songs  good :)
Cute Jap and Taiwanese Singers

But this session was different from the one i went w the CRAZY OTAKU PART TIMERS haha

SQ's session was like a fast forward, skipping through most of the songs due to limited time AHHAH

saw Vanessa and Dom @ Bugis on our way home

Then the third part of my day was dad bringing us to somewhere near Sommerville to have our dinner, and then he saw his pal and all. the waffle there is nice though! :)
then on our way home, he talked a lot about his friends situations again
i really enjoy hearing those experiences because they really teach a lot of things
although i couldn't remember all of them  ahahahah

then went home thinking i was able to continue doing  GDP

but apparently not

thanks to Our GE2 tr.. with her really vague instructions..

man do our group feel like punching her
(obv we wont)

i guess that's all for today
hopefully i'll wake up early tmr morning
then do GDP before i go to teach my mom's friend's kid
( i tink that woman is annoyed at me)

Yep, good nights and sleep tight!




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