Wednesday, November 20, 2013

so slowly, I thought things were getting into hand and slightly under control

To me, things are flowing slowly timely, into place, but I know there are so many I have yet to catch up with

to me, im satisfied, I think im moving I think Im pacing

but to them, im still, not moving, stuck, not progressing not managing not budging not listening not doing anything about anything.

is it so?

 or is it because im satisfied with too little , too in my own word to notice that im not at all going anywhere with what im doing,

maybe what im doing s not enough

but recently, ive been searching for peace

but how do I?
 I constantly anxious and worrying

but stopping an resting doesn't seem to be helping

all it eve does it eat up more and more of my time, causing me to be more anxious

im not constant

im not moving

yet, slacking gives me the delusion that im stable and peaceful


which is never the case

Now im in Starbuck at buona vista doing GDP ,

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very very motivated by my friends,  (min ru and kim for supporting me and pushing me on on twitter, I really really feel supported like with their reminder, I will not backslide in my work,

I wont let their effort and concern go to waste,
I'll show them what they did was of a really great purpose

it pushed and moved someone like me


but all this are just thoughts and words now,

I have got to put them into actions and start doing my work really really do it,



cus I really don't want to loose and let down friends like this I don't want another round of feeling like my friends are gonna leave me

I don't want disappoint people time and again

I don't want to lose anymore friends that are dear to me



back to work now :)

updates again next time:>



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