Saturday, September 28, 2013

Hellooo.. I'm Listening to Passenger Music while doing Maya and wow, the truth of his song ahaha makes it nice to listen to.. :) LOL

I think my interest in shows and music quite hips lei, like not a lot ppl enjoy one.. LOL oh well..

http://youtu.be/Ka7TiWE4N18

Hmm.. still doing the leaves on the second tree. I realized the leaves will look more natural of I shift the pivot to the stalk of the leaf and shifted it.. so they wont look as if they are super layered.. then rotate along the pivot.. also need to remember to change the leaves' shape from time to time..

Haha ive only been practicing the same ukulele song forever but my changing of fingers still sibei cueh...

Guitar guitar.. I go find the tabs better la huh.. then learn by my self.. I want tips then ask that poop..

Patient Love by Passenger is damn nice please.. Wahhhhhh

Sia Ignatius de card I haven't yet.. I'll do it in half an hour's time.. Do Maya first (:

Oh and Bernice texted me ahahah so cute man #theperksofbeingatuitionteacher

I should try QT-ing later (the proper way according to the internet)


"Life's for the Livin' , so Live it , or you're better off Dead."
- Passenger


i played a melody at 7:05 PM
c0mments Gooda Morns!! :)) ahahah guess hwat?? just got a guitar from zee pek ytd and I tuned it in the morning.. haha finally figured out how to use the tuner :))) Cello yesterday was fun! although my fingers were hurting form all the pressing on strongs.. should I go for their concerts? 12 oct if im not wrong.. hahah see first.. maybe asking minxin (: hmm my fingers are still hurting now though! was practicing the ukulele... I really need get my music theory straight... if not cello is gonna be tough for me .. and guess what.. cus cello is played in bass clef.. its supposed to be easier.. siala!!! I still dk what is tough yet ahahha
sigh later got tuition.. later come home touch the guitar again (: practice practice practice! :D XD

I think im like that cus it's the start..
but this time.. I want to persevere..
I don't want to give up half way like all my past interest.. so shit

oh my maya also not done sia ahahahha

die die die


I guess what I also had on small crushes on guys were just passionate lust.. damn .. I should change cus the heart can be behaved and I will behave my heart and not stupidly "fall in love" because it is not love im falling into , it's lust im falling under


oh did I tell u? I think recently, im super into spoken words cus they're so cool esp those in PC4M like wow.. straight in your face the damn truths..


and so.. Tuesday is approaching fast again.. why o why

Meh, theres quite a few things on my mind that I wna discuss about but I wont because im playing this online blog thing safe.. don't wna cause any complications and miscommunications

haha you know what?
 I almost though I could sign in my blog through my phone and just blog from my phone but apparently it force closes easily, damn.. what a disappointment hahhah

:) SEE U





i played a melody at 10:52 AM
c0mments

Thursday, September 26, 2013

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3GSqRIe-qc4

and I was learning this song! Tonight you belong to me (:

Ahahah the song damn cute (y)

I know (I know)
You belong to somebody new
But Tonight you belong to me
Although (although) we're apart
Your part of my heart
And tonight you belong to me
Way down by the stream
How sweet it will seem
Once more just to dream
In the moonlight
My honey I know (I know)
With the dawn that you will be gone
But tonight you belong to me
Way down, way down along the stream
How very, very sweet it will seem
Once more just to dream
In the silvery moonlight
My honey, I know (I know)
With the dawn that you will be gone
But tonight you belong to me
Just to little old me

Tmr morning will practice again :))

Tmr got cello then got tuition! Ookie dooks! :))

Practice song and do Maya! and complete Ignatius' card dammit!


i played a melody at 11:05 PM
c0mments I will be Still...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z3wwWFsSlNQ  (seriously..I swear one day i'm gonna make better lyric videos for these songs..)


Still
Words and Music by Reuben Morgan

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust



In Quietness and Trust..

Just came back from learning Guitar with Kevin Just now.. G- Em - C- D

chatted and stuff

and before we left.. he left me with this

"don't depend your securities on one person ...even if it's your boyfriend.. because if one day they'll leave.. what do you do then"

food for thought he said.. but little did he know that this... this phrase affected me more than it should ..so much more than it should.. I almost cried on my way home.. why? Cus it's so familiar and I realized I was doing it again.. I was depending my securities to much on people.. and I get insecure very.. too easily because of that as well, and it sucks.. because then I knew how much more I needed to learn to depend on God for security rather than people around me.. that sentence hit me hard..

you know why? because im depending my securities on someone I shouldn't now.. and it sucks, it plays mind trick and heart trick with me.. it spins my head... it suffocates me ..

If Kev didn't say that, i wouldn't have been reminded of what I realized.. I would've jumped and laid my securities on anybody that was willing to show the slightest bit of concern..(I will never be satisfied.. this cycle will just go on forever and hey, that wouldn't do anybody any good.. because a person will not be able to handle the responsibility of that.. and this routine suck, because I would be tremendously affected by that person if that person isn't able to keep up the weight of my securities..

Hahah kinda glad to have someone like him to keep my brain in track and stuff... so ass.. then again.. securities and securities.. I wouldn't wanna loose my friends..

whataboutthepromises..


I'm so caught up with myself man..


Kevin sort of reminds me of who I was in the past.. because I had so much trust in letting what will be ,be. now I'm constantly worried.. so lacking in faith..


I remember being so chill about most things.. so accepting because I had trust in what will be will be..

To think that I use to think that Christians were naïve.. but if the others really saw how sins work and tempts us in the real life..

they would realize the truth ad severity of what God says

because Kev and I were talking about how Solomon had 300 wives and 700 concubines and how he was the one who asked for wisdom..
then I was questioning the bible as if an atheist..
like why did this guy who got wisdom form God could make a such an unwise choice and be led astray by his wife instead of God
because if this is so.. doesn't that mean he didn't have wisdom God promised him at the first place?

and on my way home.. I was thinking about this and suddenly it strayed to the situation I had with the ex..

I realized before I had gone into physical intimate with him.. I knew that it wasn't wise to be physically intimate with that guy in the first.. but out of lust and curiosity.. I did..

so Solomon had the wisdom , he was the wisest man that ever walked earth.. how ever.. he didn't put it to good use.. he had let sin tempt him.. thus led astray from God..

How scary Sin is..

and yep, thanks to Kev, I had a whole lot of things to reflect about..

oh I remember we were also talking about him wanting to be a psychologist haha and he was saying that only quiet people who thinks were able to able to do this job.. leave it to extroverts.. the patients may die.. ahahah (jk)

and it requires people who are adamant in thoughts?

then it brought me to think about how I was before.. and totally I was a philosophist..
hell yeah I was.. I gave up thinking during sec 3 because it was a heavy burden to carry.. therefore my constant retard mode..

but I was reminded on how I was so convinced that it didn't matter whether I outgoing around others...because I would also want to be a person who is Quiet yet Confident and assured... and humble and still..

and now.. I'm the total opposite.. I'm a loud empty vessel.. and that's sad..

it's like damn I could've moved forward in my life with my past attitude.. and because of the people around me, I changed.. so someone I thought I'd never be.. so yeah..
here are all thoughts of the day and yes.. I do feel so much better after sharing on a blog.. although to nobody in particular :)

Thank you God for the reflective day and I really enjoyed learning the guitar although I'm damn assed noob LOL.

Our God is Greater - Chris Tomlin #np

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zlA5IDnpGhc

Water You turned into wine
Open the eyes of the blind
There's no one like You
None like You
Into the darkness You shining
Out of the ashes we rise
There's no one like You
None like You

CHORUS
Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome and power
Our God, Our God...

Into the darkness you shining
Out of the ashes we Rise
There's no One like You
None like You.

Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome and power
Our God, Our God...
Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome and power
Our God, Our God...
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsty.com/chris-tomlin-our-god-is-greater-lyrics.html ]
BRIDGE
And if Our God is for us, then who could ever stop us
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
And if Our God is for us, then who could ever stop us
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
What can stand against?

Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome and power
Our God, Our God...
Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome and power
Our God, Our God...

And if Our God is for us, then who could ever stop us
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
And if Our God is for us, then who can ever stop us
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
Then what can stand against?
Then what can stand against?

Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome and power
Our God, Our God...
Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome and power
Our God, Our God...    









i played a melody at 7:17 PM
c0mments And because I am an impatient person.. I went to Google and find ways to do Quiet Time properly.. and I realize it isn't all about bringing your problems to God and trusting in Him to deal with your problems for you.. it is a lot more on getting to know him. which is something I really need to do, I really really want to know him. so yeah. I think quiet time would be a really good time for me to get to know God on a personal level.. but at the same time.. I have to admit that I get sleepy easily when I read the bible.. like I'll literally feel like dozing off.. one of the reasons would be.. I can't see how the passage could be understood in a sense that it could relate to my current situation.. but that is a misconception as well, now I know that it's about getting to know God, I really hope the next time I turn to His Words, both of us would benefit Greatly from it.

And guess what, after doing Quiet Time we have to share it with someone right? so I guess that it'd be good if I could do QT with my sis in the morning and so both of us can share with one another what we learn from QT and what we hear from God.

then although many websites encourage it to be a daily thing, but I really doubt I have the stamina to do so.. so maybe.. I'll just build up on it.. But if I can , I would continue to do it :)


And YAY i'm happy that today's research for my new journey was fruitful :)

Thank you God! :D

Oh by the way, here are some websites that I referred to for help

http://www.discipleshipint.org/spiritual_disciplines/how_to_have_a_daily_quiet_time

http://www.intouch.org/you/article-archive/content?topic=how_to_have_a_quiet_time_article

http://bibleseo.com/featured/how-to-do-quiet-time-time-alone-with-god/

http://www.lwf.org/site/News2?id=10545

http://preceptaustin.org/quiet_time_seven_minutes_with_god.htm








i played a melody at 12:46 PM
c0mments a lot of times, man, ALOT of times.. people say recognize his presence.. but I can hardly ever feel him.. maybe i'm stupid not to realize his presence and stuff ..how do you recognize God's presence? is it something physical? emotional? Mental? I can't bring myself to feel.. I don't ...I just feel empty .. maybe it's my mid.. God if you're hearing this.. I wanna say i'm sorry.. I'm not denying you.. but I really can't seem to feel you.. I just feel empty.. maybe.. just maybe.. this peace is you.. the reason i'm not angsty.. not anxious.. not thinking much.. maybe in this nothingness, You are there..


"We leave the old behind
It will not define us, no
Yesterday is gone
Now anything is possible''

-O this God, Matt Redman


i played a melody at 11:22 AM
c0mments hello! good morning (: yep, i'm learning guitar from kev later YAY finally.
Things I can actually do without letting my time go to waste:
- Cut Nails
-Try to QT although I have no idea how
-Read "I Kissed dating Goodbye"
-Maya
-Touch my Bro's Ukulele
-Listen to John Mayer and cry (i'm kidding..idk)
-Read through Bernice's Paper
-Oh, Ignatius' card

You know what? i'm actually feeling frantic about something..
I'll diary it down.. cus if I typed it here.. it'll be too obvious.. I know hardly anybody's gonna read this blog.. but I still wna play it safe..

Perfectly Lonely - John Mayer

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zB9LBFDXiQU



Haha this reflects a lot on the book i'm reading now.. makes sense of what i'm being now (: Perfectly Lonely! <3 p="">


i played a melody at 9:54 AM
c0mments

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

And Yes, I'm sadder than ever now.. UGH the replies are so.. cold .. where is going? are we drifting apart?


Stop This Train _John Mayer

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5BTzNX5OMN4

No I'm not color blind
I know the world is black and white
Try to keep an open mind but...
I just can't sleep on this tonight
Stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly won't someone stop this train

Don't know how else to say it, don't want to see my parents go
One generation's length away
From fighting life out on my own

Stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't but honestly won't someone stop this train

So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game to find a way to say that life has just begun
Had a talk with my old man
Said help me understand
He said turn 68, you'll renegotiate
Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute change the place you're in
Don't think I couldn't ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we'll never stop this train

See once in a while when it's good
It'll feel like it should
And they're all still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing
'til you cry when you're driving away in the dark.

Singing stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can't take this speed it's moving in
I know I can't
Cause now I see I'll never stop this train

(think I got 'em now)


Shucks this song is so sad..
and im sad too
like my heart's dunk in milk
and drowning..

shouldn't have put you first
should've had known

Now I feel lonely

Who's important now?


I told myself not to be pulled down by shit like this ahaha
oh well, i'm sorry
I'll do better next time






i played a melody at 11:10 PM
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http://www.nytimes.com/2013/09/15/opinion/sunday/its-not-mess-its-creativity.html?_r=3&

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hj50BVJ8p9Y  >> what if I told you - John Walker (Y)


i played a melody at 7:59 PM
c0mments [Intro: Justin Timberlake]
You'd take the clothes off my back and I'd let you
You'd steal the food right out my mouth and I'd watch you eat it
I still don’t know why, why I love you so much, ohh
You curse my name, in spite to put me to shame
Have my laundry in the streets, dirty or clean, give it up for fame
But I still don't know why, why I love it so much

[Hook: Justin Timberlake]
And baby, it's amazing I'm in this maze with you
I just can't crack your code
One day you screaming you love me loud
The next day you're so cold
One day you're here, one day you're there, one day you care
You're so unfair, sipping from your cup 'til it runneth over, Holy Grail

[Verse 1: Jay-Z]
Blue told me remind you niggers
Fuck that shit y'all talking 'bout, I'm the nigger
Caught up in all these lights and cameras
But look what that shit did to Hammer
God damn it it I like it
Bright lights is enticing but look what it did to Tyson
All that money in one night, thirty mil' for one fight
But soon as all the money blows, all the pigeons take flight
Fuck the fame, keep cheating on me, what I do, I took her back
Fool me twice, that's my bad, I can't even blame her for that
Enough to make me wanna murder, momma' please just get my bail
I know nobody to blame, Kurt Cobain, I did it to myself

[Bridge: Justin Timberlake]
And we all just, entertainers
And we're stupid, and contagious
And we all just, entertainers

[Hook: Justin Timberlake]
And baby, it's amazing I'm in this maze with you
I just can't crack your code
One day you screaming you love me loud
The next day you're so cold
One day you're here, one day you're there, one day you care
You're so unfair, sipping from your cup 'til it runneth over, Holy Grail

[Verse 2: Jay-Z]
Now I got tattoos on my body, psycho bitches in my lobby
I got haters in the paper, photo shoots with paparazzi
Can't even take my daughter for a walk, see 'em by the corner store
I feel like I'm cornered off enough is enough, I'm calling this off
Who the fuck I'm kidding though, I'm getting high, sitting low
Sliding by in that big body, curtains all in my window
This fame hurt but this chain works, I think back you asked the same person
If this is all you had to deal with, nigger deal with, this shit ain't work
This light work, camera snapping, my eyes hurt
Niggers dying back where I was birthed, fuck your IRIS and the IRS
Get the hell up off your high horse
You got the shit that niggers die for, dry yours
Why you mad, take the good with the bad
Don't throw the baby out with the bath water
You still alive, still that nigger
Nigger you survived, you still getting bigger nigger
Living the life, Vanilla wafers in a villa
Illest nigger alive, Michael Jackson's Thriller

[Hook: Justin Timberlake]
And baby, it's amazing I'm in this maze with you
I just can't crack your code
One day you screaming you love me loud
The next day you're so cold
One day you're here, one day you're there, one day you care
You're so unfair, sipping from your cup 'til it runneth over, Holy Grail

[Bridge: Justin Timberlake]
You get the air out my lungs whenever you need it
And you take the blade right out my heart, just so you can watch me bleed
And I still don’t know why, why I love you so much, yeah
And you play this game in spite to drive me insane
I got it tattooed on my sleeve forever in ink with guess whose name
But I still don't know why, why our love is so much

[Hook: Justin Timberlake]
And baby, it's amazing I'm in this maze with you
I just can't crack your code
One day you screaming you love me loud
The next day you're so cold
One day you're here, one day you're there, one day you care
You're so unfair, sipping from your cup 'til it runneth over, Holy Grail

[Ending: Justin Timberlake]
Ooooooooohhhhhh, woooowwww (Holy Holy Holy Holy Holy Holy Grail)
Ooooooooohhhhhh, oooohhhh, woooowwww (Holy Holy Holy Holy Holy Holy Grail)
Ooooooooohhhhhh, don't know why......



okay currently and it has been a few days since ive been lovin this song (:


"And baby, it's amazing I'm in this maze with you
I just can't crack your code
One day you screaming you love me loud
The next day you're so cold
One day you're here, one day you're there, one day you care
You're so unfair, sipping from your cup 'til it runneth over, Holy Grail "

wow

Okay guess what? I had a depression attack just now.. because my best friend wasn't texting me at all.. and yes, I was feeling lonely because of that.. I was like wondering what the hell is wrong.. whats happenin..I want to believe that it's nothing and I over thinking.. but would I be too naïve in thinking that? what if there is something really going on??

But luckily, I felt the peace of God and had a revelation in the toilet while I was bathing.. (I was itchy and stinkin cus of the weather for the past few days..

So, in the toilet I was thinking.. hey I'm suppose to love .. all equally no? then the sadness felt too familiar.. like my first relationship with a guy that had gone all wrong.. I was feeling lonely, I was thinking only about myself, I've learnt that love isn't selfish, it's selfless.. so my mindset was seriously wrong.. I was selfish, I needed company from my best friend just because I was feeling lonely and insecure.. instead the only person I should turn to in time of needs.. the best person to turn to in times of needs was God.. Unfortunately, I'm not familiar with the bible although im a baby Christian and has been exposed to bible things since I was young..
so anyways, back to where I was.. so I was feeling selfish and I  was reminded by God that I shouldn't feel that way.. I'm clearer about this now thanks to Trisha lending me a book called "kissing dating goodbye" I really intellectual book, it makes things really clear about relationships these days, and I thank God for being able to be exposed to this book ( I'm far from finishing though) ...

and also.. I was dwelling in my sorrows loneliness and sadness so bad that it is hindering me from doing a lot of things.. because this worry keeps hanging across my head.. I was putting my friend first that's why I'm feeling so crappy..

Then it felt so similar to my breakup.. I was so sad.. but on the bright side.. I was so sad, so wrought that I was determine not to stay that way, because although I had tremendous self pity on myself.. I knew that I didn't want to lose to this emotion.. I knew I didn't at all enjoy what is happening and somehow I knew I had to make a  change to my emotion.. so I had to concentrate to make myself happy.. I had to make my self contented with my self, I need to find self worth in a situation I felt worthless without the person I though who would love me the most.. although it was a hard time for me, the anger for losing to an emotion and the determination for me to feel better made me overcome this. so step one checked, I had at least changed my mind set on the situation. I had to move on.. so what.. what would make me self contented? what would allow my to find peace within my life and at the same time self worth? a grounding affirmation that no one but me can give myself? (okay I wasn't a Christian then so I had to find my ways because.. I wasn't that expose *excuses* but I did pray to God I really did.. and I guess that at that moment of time.. he did grant me the peace of him.. I really felt it... because amazingly at a situation like that.. although I was so wrecked up at night crying and slapping myself for being so dumb and being so caught up with negativity.. he granted me the peace of him.. so sudden, so warm and yet so sweetly.. that was also one of the reasons why I was able to pull through.. he also granted me the strength, the people, the determination I needed )

So I realized there are things I could do to pull through to find self worth.. in my case these are what I did:

1.) Put myself out better then what I was before.. I took care of my self I LOVED myself.. for example even like a simple thing as bathing, I made sure that I felt fresh and comfortable after I came out of the bath, I would scrub every part of me, rub every part of my scalp make my self smell real good, cover my self in powder.. and patted my hair as dry as possible so that I'd be comfortable in my clothes..(u know people with long hair would always have wet patches on their clothes because of their hair.) Got into my most comfortable and airy clothes(preferably singlet and long soft PJs) ..sit myself down on the bed in the room with a book and/or a drink and avoid Social Media

okay the reason why I would like to avoid touching the phone or my computer was because I would have the urge to stalk to get updated on how that other person is. and that isn't healthy for me at al, I would get myself into further depression if I saw anything I didn't want to or if not.. this constant need for assurance would grow bigger and bigger as long as you feed it.. so the first thing to not do is touch your phone and go onto Facebook.. listen to music from YouTube and such.. BUT DONT .. NEVER EVER go to social media as much as possible

2.) I concentrated on what I could do well, I love drawing and art , I could distract myself by giving my best in the work I was given or I may even learn a new skill or 2. Just Give your best in everything you do.

3.) And guess what? be especially nice to people around you. yes, you are hurting so bad inside you know u deserve the pity of others. but to get over this, to be selfless in situations like this, would make you grow so much more.. so be nice to the people around you.. You'd be surprise on how at peace and happy you will feel.

4.) yes the people that surrounds you matters too, you have to have people that is truthful and strong.. a constant reminder not to give in to these sad thoughts that will cause you to perform worse than u are already performing.. in a positive sense, this is a very good time for mental stretching and training. Don Not Give In. I remember my manager form my workplace telling me : " Do not show this weak side to Guys, they will not care. Do Not Show you have lost, because they will smirk at your misery. Stay Strong okay? All you have to concentrate on now is your school and work .. nothing more. nothing less." she said it in broken English.. to me, it sounded so harsh, but yet it was tremendously strong and comforting, and i really have to thank her for that.. she is one of the strong women in my life that I really look up too (: Supportive friends are a real deal. Really, so surround and embrace yourself in all of them, you won't regret this healing experience.

So yeah, there maybe other things that I have done to makes myself feel better and cope like Keeping a Diary, Blogging.. listening to Music that are powerful, like P!nk, The Script , and others on not giving up or giving in..

there will be tough times and times where you think that forgetting or getting over the situation will be impossible.. but it aint true.. as long as u have the fight in you, you can do it.. as long as you know, where you are now isn't where you want to stay forever and you find ways to get yourself out of there, you'd be able to , be patience with yourself and the situation, it will be over , and I tell you, YOU WILL KNOW WHEN YOU'RE OVER IT :) so Keep on smiling, because that guy in your future is waiting and also preparing himself for you and only and Especially You (:


Hahah I enjoyed blogging about this whole thing because it kinda show that I have learnt and grown in some sense too. I know that only a handful of people knows about this blog and only one or two people or none would be viewing this, but hey, I shared . And it's up to whether you're lucky enough to read the informative ones (:

Toodles.. back to loving myself, my life , my people and my God. ;)


Yes I've been blogging a lot, and that's a good thing kay? ahaha ✿♥☮


i played a melody at 7:30 PM
c0mments shit was that dramatic? because I can't seem to stand it any longer.. I feel like giving in and cry.. I don't know what to do... i'm not desperate.. all i'm thinking is.. what happened?? what the hell is happening? am I being ignored? angered at? or is this no big deal? I really don't know.. it's like 2 situation fusing together and all happening again.. I really don't like it.. im not at ease.. what should I do?? Arghhhh.....


i played a melody at 5:43 PM
c0mments
Silent, as if we are playing an unnamed game of how long we can live without one another.





i played a melody at 10:18 AM
c0mments YAY. good morning (: I woke up like 730 am today , great! "blessed be lord~"-Chris Tomlin

Blessed be Your name
In the land that is plentiful
Where the streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's all as it should be
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I'm gonna say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, Blessed be Your name




KAy BRB I NEDD to poo

haha I typed that in a rush so well, you see the errors

GOD'S GREAT DANCEFLOOR!!!




I’m coming back to the start
Where You found me
I’m coming back to Your heart
Now I surrender
Take me
This is all I can bring

I’m coming back to the start
I got this freedom
In here we feel Your heart
Your heartbeat for us
Take me
This is all I can bring

[Chorus:]
You’ll never stop loving us
No matter how far we run
You’ll never give up on us
All of heaven shouts: let the future begin
Let the future begin

Take me
This is all I can bring

[Chorus:]
You’ll never stop loving us
No matter how far we run
You’ll never give up on us
All of heaven shouts: let the future begin

I feel alive, I come alive
I am alive on God’s great dance floor
I feel alive, I come alive
I am alive on God’s great dance floor
I feel alive, I come alive
I am alive on God’s great dance floor
I feel alive, I come alive
I am alive on God’s great dance floor
I feel alive, I come alive
I am alive on God’s great dance floor
God’s great dance floor!



Okay so, let's have an update!!
Yesterday was alright, was kinda proud of my self for being able to start on a second tree because the first one reaaaally sucked.. so I figured if I did the branches properly, I might be able to attach individual leaves on to the branches without it looking messy and fake, hahah can't wait to try that out later (:
hmm, yep, gave tuition to Bernice and Irene yesterday.. yes Irene is back! apparently back from her Granda's funeral :( I hope her family is able to pull through the grieve it may bring. oh and Bernice's mum passed to me a photocopied version of Bernice's exam paper (of which I had "glanced" through) so i'm going to analyse it later.
Meh, Gonna quit that centre after their end year exam.. I'm underpaid :/
should that be the case??
Anyway, after tuition ,went to ming shun's house to teach him oral. It's today, the exam is today D; I hope he remembers what I told him and does slightly better.

and yes, why I am mentioning this?
partially cause his mum gave me more than what I deserve (pay wise) , and yes, I feel happy and grateful at the same time because that money is gonna allow me to survive through 2-3 days of school.

Yep, earning your owning allowance may seem cool and makes u responsible (erm.. not exactly my case) but it brings on a lot of unnecessary worry and burden and trouble, but you learn things (:  Man so I really have to starting searching for a new job ._.

wait poo session again D;

Okay I'm back

Which side should I start first, the one where I wanted to update on Monday or my current thoughts on my relationships with my friends ..

I'll just go as it flows..

so yeah, actually i'm supposed to be out with Winnie to Changi to do work today and guess what? it was only this Morning that she told me it was 830._. and I was like so early sia.. and ask her if we were still doing work after the movie.. then misunderstood and thought I didn't know we were supposed to do work before .. and told me  "Aiya, suan le la" Suan liao jiu suan liao lo .... idk man
part of me was like, damn, screwed another opportunity to bond with her (I think im out of her system as like what she mentioned on twitter..mhmmm) but the other was like, yay, you get get to rest and do maya! and spend time at home.. with dearie com. DIE LIAO LO

For the whole of yesterday.. Kevin and I didn't contacted .. part of me wanted to just text him something random .. but all he'll ever answer is "orh" or "mhmm" which annoys (and disappoints D:) me. Yes it does. UGH and it was bothering me the whole day.. but I kinda figured he didn't wanna text me anyway, so why even start, no? Later become one of the awkward conversation then MEH. I hope this whole thing doesn't affect our friendship.. No wait, I kinda predict that it was one of the sign or friends drifting apart. Damn.

I mean, the initial closeness was there, but that was like taking up a lot of both of our time from our friends and our families.. which is shit.. and it shouldn't be that way.
i'm kind of glad that he is a sensible friend... because I sure am not :/

thennnnnn.... meh, Thursday.. we'll see

Sial, my eyes blurring

Okay so updates about F1! (: okay so on the first day, we met with Chermaine's Cousin, Xian Bing and his friend Wen Kang (EC,EC :D *ahahah wenkang, if in any case you are reading this LOL.. I am embarrassed) and Chermaine's Bro's friend, Lu Jie. So yeah, ahaha during cleaning we got the chance to see A1 (which I mistook as F1 and was so disappointed) then.. oh lunch was great.. the nonya fish spicy but salty, I like (:  and also realize that Chermaine's Kindergarten friend was there too, Kimberly .. She is chio.. AHHAHA

THHHEEENN.. yes, so happy when the support group came up (: the first person who came up was DENISS (WOOHOOOOO *yes another EC which I fail to find on fb T-T) walao, he is really knowledgeable in a sense la, HE EVEN KNOWS A BOUT MAYA ND MUSIC STUFF PLEASE..
it was really fun talking to him! I was also kind of convinced to go to University because of how he explained things to me.. like you'll really learn a lot there and in society it's that piece of paper is really important..
and IF id didn't wan to get into university.. I must be so good at something unique that it could get me a place anywhere... and that is tough man.. and I heard digipen was supposed to be not bad? I don't know man.. (LOL I in this course still know nothing about anything bagus uh)
and yeah, he says get a place in ur internship if possible
wow, he really has a way of getting me thinking and kind of excited about my future..
HAHA he even says that because I learn cello, I may even play bass in a band.. macham ONE REPUBLIC ... which is really damn cool, because even though im not musically incline, I still love music .. in a sense tt I like to listen to music.
so yeah, Deniss was cool :) and he has a GOATEE ahahah my first time finding someone with a goatee not funny actually kinds of suit him HAHAH

Then got to meet Grady , so cool that chap but I don't think we talked much .. hahah thennnnnn... Alexis! She knows my cousin Greg! And really friendly ahahah can play with her one..i like her smile (:

then second day the food was alright.. Chermaine and I end up guessing riddles because we were just too bored.. like REAALLLY BORED.. haahah
but the joke were an icebreaker to Kimberly and Shu Juan ahahah
was cool:)
then that day's group of Group Support was different .. D: AW.
But I got to meet new people like the guy in green specs who did some marine things but realized he was more interested in management to he might change his path and he talked a lot uhm abit wayang but very friendly ahaha, and the computer science guy who totally didn't wanna talk much but was alright to others and the guy who end up repairing watch although he started off studying catering and service hahah he was fun to talk to ahahah cus he is rough in the way he speak , but with standard, so it wasn't boring, wlao he macham damn sad to see me the second time he saw me sia "You again ah? *shake head*" SIALA ._. don't like so much ah? ahahahah  Thennnnn there was this 36 year old guy as well Wow Insurance guy, which is kinda cool hahah but abit don't know what to talk about because of the age gap.. but he was friendly (:   okay, I didn't get to meet Charlie then :(( cus I was resting and when he came at first I didn't feel like talking.. so yeah *SAD* haha
HAHA the resting was funny! I rested with Wen Kang at first then he called Xian bing down to join us hahah.. mhmm, then we were chatting but the F1 cars were so loud the scene was hilarious.. they are 8 years of best friends man WOW just wow (: haahahah I really enjoyed it a lot a lot..
housekeeping aint that easy cus u keep having to stand and that caused a lot of sore feet... oh and on that day I think Wallas introduced himself hahah he is a sec 3 man! wlao what he doing there ahah, but he is a really friendly guy, very smiley LOL

Then day 3 YAYYY AYAYYAYAYYAYA finally
we did a lot of work on day 3 I have no idea why but day 3 was tougher..
And then we met Ow Yang and made him play fuzzy wuzzy AHAHAHH the game so funny..i realized that all of these group support people didn't bring their brains along w them to work.. most of them didn't wan to think LOL but alexis did play with us as well  AHAH we even played I SPY wahahah And I got to meet Charlie !! YAY friendly chap ahaha Ow Yang kept on infusing FUZZY WUZZY JOKES into the things he said ahahahahahhahahahha

And yeah day 3 ended quite well, with all of us taking a photo together (: OH AND chermaine got a pass from a stranger hahah and she went to watch it.. WOW it cost 400 plus sia!!

yep! that's that (: I wanted to post a picture.. but I abit lazy..















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