Thursday, September 26, 2013

I will be Still...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z3wwWFsSlNQ  (seriously..I swear one day i'm gonna make better lyric videos for these songs..)


Still
Words and Music by Reuben Morgan

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust



In Quietness and Trust..

Just came back from learning Guitar with Kevin Just now.. G- Em - C- D

chatted and stuff

and before we left.. he left me with this

"don't depend your securities on one person ...even if it's your boyfriend.. because if one day they'll leave.. what do you do then"

food for thought he said.. but little did he know that this... this phrase affected me more than it should ..so much more than it should.. I almost cried on my way home.. why? Cus it's so familiar and I realized I was doing it again.. I was depending my securities to much on people.. and I get insecure very.. too easily because of that as well, and it sucks.. because then I knew how much more I needed to learn to depend on God for security rather than people around me.. that sentence hit me hard..

you know why? because im depending my securities on someone I shouldn't now.. and it sucks, it plays mind trick and heart trick with me.. it spins my head... it suffocates me ..

If Kev didn't say that, i wouldn't have been reminded of what I realized.. I would've jumped and laid my securities on anybody that was willing to show the slightest bit of concern..(I will never be satisfied.. this cycle will just go on forever and hey, that wouldn't do anybody any good.. because a person will not be able to handle the responsibility of that.. and this routine suck, because I would be tremendously affected by that person if that person isn't able to keep up the weight of my securities..

Hahah kinda glad to have someone like him to keep my brain in track and stuff... so ass.. then again.. securities and securities.. I wouldn't wanna loose my friends..

whataboutthepromises..


I'm so caught up with myself man..


Kevin sort of reminds me of who I was in the past.. because I had so much trust in letting what will be ,be. now I'm constantly worried.. so lacking in faith..


I remember being so chill about most things.. so accepting because I had trust in what will be will be..

To think that I use to think that Christians were naïve.. but if the others really saw how sins work and tempts us in the real life..

they would realize the truth ad severity of what God says

because Kev and I were talking about how Solomon had 300 wives and 700 concubines and how he was the one who asked for wisdom..
then I was questioning the bible as if an atheist..
like why did this guy who got wisdom form God could make a such an unwise choice and be led astray by his wife instead of God
because if this is so.. doesn't that mean he didn't have wisdom God promised him at the first place?

and on my way home.. I was thinking about this and suddenly it strayed to the situation I had with the ex..

I realized before I had gone into physical intimate with him.. I knew that it wasn't wise to be physically intimate with that guy in the first.. but out of lust and curiosity.. I did..

so Solomon had the wisdom , he was the wisest man that ever walked earth.. how ever.. he didn't put it to good use.. he had let sin tempt him.. thus led astray from God..

How scary Sin is..

and yep, thanks to Kev, I had a whole lot of things to reflect about..

oh I remember we were also talking about him wanting to be a psychologist haha and he was saying that only quiet people who thinks were able to able to do this job.. leave it to extroverts.. the patients may die.. ahahah (jk)

and it requires people who are adamant in thoughts?

then it brought me to think about how I was before.. and totally I was a philosophist..
hell yeah I was.. I gave up thinking during sec 3 because it was a heavy burden to carry.. therefore my constant retard mode..

but I was reminded on how I was so convinced that it didn't matter whether I outgoing around others...because I would also want to be a person who is Quiet yet Confident and assured... and humble and still..

and now.. I'm the total opposite.. I'm a loud empty vessel.. and that's sad..

it's like damn I could've moved forward in my life with my past attitude.. and because of the people around me, I changed.. so someone I thought I'd never be.. so yeah..
here are all thoughts of the day and yes.. I do feel so much better after sharing on a blog.. although to nobody in particular :)

Thank you God for the reflective day and I really enjoyed learning the guitar although I'm damn assed noob LOL.

Our God is Greater - Chris Tomlin #np

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zlA5IDnpGhc

Water You turned into wine
Open the eyes of the blind
There's no one like You
None like You
Into the darkness You shining
Out of the ashes we rise
There's no one like You
None like You

CHORUS
Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome and power
Our God, Our God...

Into the darkness you shining
Out of the ashes we Rise
There's no One like You
None like You.

Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome and power
Our God, Our God...
Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome and power
Our God, Our God...
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsty.com/chris-tomlin-our-god-is-greater-lyrics.html ]
BRIDGE
And if Our God is for us, then who could ever stop us
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
And if Our God is for us, then who could ever stop us
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
What can stand against?

Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome and power
Our God, Our God...
Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome and power
Our God, Our God...

And if Our God is for us, then who could ever stop us
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
And if Our God is for us, then who can ever stop us
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
Then what can stand against?
Then what can stand against?

Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome and power
Our God, Our God...
Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome and power
Our God, Our God...    









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