Monday, July 29, 2013

HAVING A MENTAL BLOCK NAO

so yes, im gonna spent this 7 mins left of IDTN lexxon to blog, I really cant think of any stories..
oh and remember how im so pumped up over not leaving my hw last minute and THOUGHT I was finally managing my life? well, I should've know better. REALLY. NO WAIT. ACTUALLY I DID KNOW BETTER. But I didn't not come up with ways to stop myself from doing it.. OR maybe I believed that I was really like that( a lazy easy procrastinate person) , that made me act like that even more easily than I could have. Nope, no stories out, draw hw not started , MAYA not touched at all ( wah, maya can just fuck my life I wanna ask fo help but the kind of help I need requires a lot of depending and time, ain't nobody got that time and patience fer meh) PDP there is that surrealism illustration.... GDP the fonts thing and the vase thing... ELAW just revision ... Gen ed.. mah script.. presentations coming ...


Oh let me intro a new friend to you that recently came into my life, and his name is Kevin! ahahah a real tall block, hmm but idk man.. my poor management of friends and prioritizing led to some friction bewtween me and Winnie? idk what's gonna happen nxt though.I choose not to think much about.. yeah, I am a jerk friend, no excuse.

wait that went off track . okay yeah apparently it was kevin week last week  wlao see him almost everyday. funny or wad man? haha and I have his picture as my wall paper now.. I am foretelling more misunderstanding, but these are the ups and downs and lefts and rights of life aint it? AHAHHAA

IF YOU SEE KAY? (F-U-C-K)

AHAHAHHA
 Yeps im listening to the script loads of songs from Kev!


GUESS im missing lunch today.. no mood , and confused

I know my life is not as messed up as I think it is.. I just need to see the big picture.


OH guess what? otw to school just now, @ BV, I stood too near the train.. and when the train arrived, my skirt flew. HAHA SHET lah, I was laughing @ myself in my head too, what the hell, do I have no sense of shame or is it I have got too good a sense of humor HAHA what shet..


CAN I really place my trust and burden on God? Im really afraid that would seem so much of an excuse for not dealing my own problems and leaving it to be..
BUT then a gain I was told : To give your best and Let God do the rest..
hahah so evident that I have zero percent of faith..
 so sry to disappoint..
but I dun wanna give that excuse cus ima newbie..
thena again that may be the real reason

WHY DOES ALL MY REASON SOUND LIGA EXCUSE?




Together  we cry....


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Wednesday, July 24, 2013

YOU WERE TOO EASY WITH YOUR WORDS
                               AND I WAS TOO EASY WITH MY HEART



oh well, there was that tug in my heart, there and then, there and then.. I was reminded.. I thought I was alright, I thought it was okay.. apparently not..






okay anyway, im gonna improve my life, I should know better than to depend my happiness yet again on someone out side of me..
 then again.. MEH . hahahaha! anyways tmr! is gonna be hopefully I hope I can complete stuff (:
 uhmm... im not gonna say this online.. cus ima play it safe.. I sad. just abit sad. I think what goes around..comes around.




YES HELL FUCKING YESH IT IS WEIRD, KILL DIE YOU PLEASE...


BYE.



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Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Alright! so I know it's a Tuesday morning like almost 1am, but let's just treat this as a really late Monday night, Just because I've not turned in. Listening to: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3XmHvyFNNPA

Haha! So it's a Monday today, starting fresh and new and all that shit, and yes! I've done my PDP last night and am feeling satisfied about myself.. (okay so have the others.. but hey, I could have procrastinated but I didn't so, hey, kudos to me! ;) ) Hmm, returned the damn -assed heavy cameras and tripod( which I didn't even touch) to the school and BURDEN gone *fwwoosh!*

IDTN, was alright, except for now we have to think of 3 original ideas to execute.. I've thought about my GDP but have not asked for approval cus I've not illustrated my ideas~ oh well, will do it tmr!

Tmr's  3DF SHET.... I've not unfold anything.. Lagging behind!


Anyway, I think those can come later,
today's update is more important!!
I HAD LOTS OF FUN


OK so, Ms Sharlin took us to SAM, and guess what ? it's the museum next to SSB and I finally got to the chance to see what the museum had for the kids! was like super fun , the place was amazingly decorated, the short clips were entertaining and so was the interactive displays! (haha can use those for GDP) Got in touch with the child in me, when I drew in the mirror and did the cat collage! really cool works they've got there~ I actually didn't want to go, but I didn't regret going ;) but we did not finish looking at the exhibitions though!! Haha and I learnt a new way of walking from cityhall to brasbasar.. so dayum close, I was mind blown at how small SG really is.. like seriously!!!! OMG.

After that exhibition, Trisha came to find me after her orientation at NAFA! Gave me a disc and a lil card of comfort and encouragement! was reallllly glad to see her! YAY we gonna draw together again! Really can't wait! <3 font="">

IT WAS THE SALMON SASHIMI DATE w PY, Ger, the Sluts and the Lame one.. HAHAH, damn awesome when I see all the sashimi *heaven* And I hereby announce that I can safely finish 2 portions of salmon on my own ~ that crave! <3 font="">
Then we had 2 plates of shake kawa that was on the house (thank you so much! TAT) , 3 rolls , kamo kunsei and 9 portion of salmon in total. Listening to : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oES929aenGc

Then we went to Tom's Palette! I had #POWER98 and Lavender (perfume), aweshum shetz <3 ahahha="" and="" caught="" dear="" font="" ger="" misses="" my="" py="" really="" them="" up="" with="">

Oh, Grace is the new part timer and Jun Xiang knows Regina! hahaha!



I would really love to post some pictures but my phone is really just getting the best of my patience, all will be on my instagram! http://instagram.com/brendalimsynn


Tmr i'll be running with PY and having Tuition w Bernice and Irene!!
hmm idk if Cherie can meet me sia.. 1 hour break :/ hmmmmmmmm, and my group has to discuss project work! Arghhhh, aiyoo, every time I cmi.. very paiseh leiiii :(

hmmmm kay la, next time no more last minute things!!!


OH OH, I've got a new pair of running shoes and my bro has got a ukulele LOL haha and the bathroom mat is soooo soft!! Got to sleep soon dear ,ttynt!


Toodles Love!




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Thursday, July 11, 2013

This week was interesting except for the fact that my tummy is sick now.. must be because of the choc milk pudding strabucks drink... i keep on farting.. UGH.. and way, here's a brief update on my week so far cus i really have to poo an sleep it's like 2.15am now man....


MONDAY: ohh i went to watch despicable me w trish and her HOGC friends, was really funny and the movie was awesome, i bought an apple juice that caused fekkin 3 dollars and it was fekkin small
Trish treated me to the movie, really kind of her :) and we'll be meeting again to draw sometime next week LOL.. OH AND GDP HAVE HW :((

TUESDAY: Ran 3.6km w peiyun and did the bicycle thing..  then went to teach tuition.. BERNICE AND IRENE so cute!! <3 a="" and="" bernice="" book="" dear="" font="" how="" made="" mark="" me="" nbsp="" small="" sweet="">
AND I BOUGHT a dress for 10 dollars at a pasar malam.. Didnt domuch work so ar.. SHET
OH and cherie from HOGC came to find me in school with le jing  and Winnie and clique kept my wallet for a dumbass reason.. to teach me a lesson.. WAD FUCK... (HC smiled AW <3 ...="" font="" it="" lol="" stop="">

WEDNESDAY (today) : went to Eiris' house early in the morning .. at cck petir her MEIMEI so cute!! ORDERED MAC SO UNHEALTHY.. and paid 9.20 for it.. i just realised ...we forgot to eat our flurryyyyy OOOOHHHH... and yeah elaw.. which i continued just now... then we had photography.. REMIND ME NEVER TO RING ANYTHING ALONG FOR A SHOOT.. NEVER.. so fekkin ZHOR DENG... bought starbucks which is giving me intenal diahoerra  oops... and yeah.. thats my day so far... OH and photography was fun .. until i realised that  MY IMAGES WERE MOSTLY JPEG FML... Gonna retake soon      


DIExxx


Anyways ttyl love <3 font="">


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Thursday, July 4, 2013

"Best Thing I Never Had"




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c0mments NO, i dont mean i love ah jun.. im quite over him.. hahahah he is still not happy with anything, fine by me, i dont really wna try so hard anymore, since he obviously isn't budging.. i bet he thinks that i still love  or like him.. but to be honest, although i am willing to be friends, i swear i wouldn't want him to be my boyfriend.. ever a gain.. it was the worse kind of relationship i bet i'll ever have, i dont even know him well, and the we end up hurting each other...


OH, did i mention? His ex GF, UH OKAY I'M the EX right now, and SHE's the GF (WADEVER)..She camt to SSB on sunday, and i broke down..like fuck man.. so that clears all my questions, i was obviously used. Like stupidly and fucking hellishly used. But lesson learnt though...

and she is darn well pretty.. (sigh)

AHH 6 hours of sleep left.. hmmm


anyway, im strating this one week challenge since yesterday morning.. but i failed on the night itself but im still willing to continue and try.. For the sake of my bloody face..

and i'm Quiting on 7 July

I'm gonna miss all of them.. really :(

oh, one worry i have is that i'll turn into someone with lesser time management.. im already feeling it now.. like what the fuck..
I DONT LIKE IT
AT ALL
 I SHOULD THINK OF A WAY 
TO SAVE MYSELF




OKAY
 IM GOING TO SLEEP
OR I'LL DIE

BYE.


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