Thursday, June 27, 2013

okay, so it's 2.45 am now im supposed to be asleep but I feel like blogging a little before I do that.
I'm left with InDesign for hw.. and then 1000 words essay and the 30 pics.. FML
hmmm and im meeting Trisha tmr~at BV XD
Today, during work I macham not myself like that, keep toppling things over, feeling damn depressed and weak.. sigh.. and Ah jun still a bitch.. I think he got back w his Ex..
But TT's not the Fucking pint.. hahaha but the work was made better by dear Ah Sheng, give me Edamame and Prawn King <3 a="" abit="" and="" bein="" better="" by="" feel="" font="" good="" haha="" hahaha="" jeff="" joker="" just="" lo="" make="" me="" so="">
oh.. and told crystal that im gonna quit by & july.. I hope things will turn out better than now.. and I hope that my dad won't expect too much from me.. like my time and all .. just because I quit my job doesn't make me suddenly sibei free and more under your contril hor.. but I myself also must have discipline lah..
oh and Nom( EC) damn cute hahah so sleepy still talk to me, haha make me happy only ;) thanks dude
finished DRAW today w Eiriko and Kimmy (YAY)
 oh im listening to this playlist now.. Quite cool ahhh hahah
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dCDpYZtjeOQ&list=RD06xEecXKUxl1s
 
found some new songs happy lor..
MX Bdae coming up!! in 2 days!! LOL okay I think I was make card for her <3 font="" haha="" hopeshe="" it="" likes="" nia..="" yay="">
 
 
Brenda, you're going Good and going Great
 
The worse has yet to come... so JIAYOUS and
 for nao, CHIONG AHHHHHHHHH!!
 
ohohoh, saw MF today, haha he say became pretteh liao xD hahah Long time nuh chat w him sia LOL
 
 
and .. saw GER DEAR and the Keneth and Sheena couple OTW home hahaha
 
HAPPY DAY *Flowers~~@@**
 
OH I forgot to state one very JIALAT incident today..
bought Vege drink ah, put in LAptop bag,
cus cap damn loose, dio my laptop bag..
 SIALA
SJP
 tmr dk how LOR...
lucky is only my charger kena
laptop and sketchbook stew clean
wah God teaching me another lesson
 
 I DAMN HENG
 
OKREI I GOT to sleep liao tmr need wake up @ 8am.. Burbye ;) LOVE YA    


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Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Alright, hey there again.. so it's midnight going 2 already and im just using my com to settle maya and do some re arrangeing of items so that my com wont be too laggy and such.. so.. HAHA some interesting things happened today

Starting off, this morning i was carrying both my laptop and camera bag into the ang mo kio mrt.. must have looked suspicious to the security guard that such a skinny gal was able to carry 2 bulky items with one hand ( i was keeping my ezlink) tt he had to stop me and make sure.. LOL stopped by the security early in the morning..
An dhurray , when i reached school, IDTN tr didnt come.. so we had that lesson to chion maya, which painfully took ALOT of time.. (just kill die me)
then GDP we learnt that cool offset path thing which makes an illustration looks damn cool (we were doin it on a squirrel.)

MAYA took me till like 5pm? and that was our handing in time.. and fuck my life that this com just have to be infected by virus and whoohooo, corrupted the disc... WHICH includes like 5 other members' worth of MAYA Perfection (I'm Serious)..
Duh obviously, that put my brain into a sense of 'What the Fick did i just get the whole group into ' kind of mental state.. which does not fucking help, in that situation.. so, the only thing i knew then was to apologise, in advance. But hey , guess what？ there was actually a better solution to that... And guesss what?? (sense tha sacarsm here) It's too tell the teacher and ask for extension. (oh, why haven't i thought of that) i guess that just show that i'm not exposed enough to this kind of situation, oh well now i know. I mean u see, teachers are still human beings afterall, as long as u did what u are supposed to do, the inevitable can to be 'salvaged' , it is something that can be discussed and figured out and given a leaway to, you know? so yep, lesson learnt. And i wont leave things to last minute if possible.

Gawd the fuck,seriously, Dad can't sleep in peace cus im up late at night and he is worrying.. he ALWAYS worries.. Too Much.. and he is vulgar flowing. HOW GREAT, and then he will blame me for the rest of the family members' lack of sleep. Good job , Brenda, Good job.

oh and i had work today as well, as SSB, okay it was alright, but ah jun was still jerkish in a sense that he still gives that 'what the fuck, you're so dumb,so incapable' aura whenever he ‘communicates' with me(well fuck, if that is even real communication at all, 'table blah, table blah, counter call, this counter*points and gives buay song face*' wadeva lah, seriously.
LOL. this actually reminds me of when he uses the phrase Bo Jio, wah biang, so Awkuad man.. like eeewww, if u don't like that, please dont even try. u are just degrading urself. Really.

Oooh Winnie's online on oovoo.. well, it is still Awkuad between us, but im thankful that she stayed w me for maya today, im really thankful for that, but didnt say that to her incase i get a snide remark like: no , i didnt do it for u, i just can't trust you..  OK, i know that that is like partially(mostly)(well, kind of) the truth, i would really appreciate it if she wasn't that blunt. LOL

Just posted Gu Ma's Birthday photos on FB, LOL that was like more than one month late man..
I still remember tho...18 May 2013, on that saturday which was supposed to be me and ah jun's (last) date.. before (i even knew he ) broke up with me..

Walao, just see him liking all (some of) the chiobu's photo.. i abit jelly leiii.. Ahahahaha .. [although, i set the chat settings so wont be able to see if u are online...i still do know u are online..ur presence cannot be ignored by my heart, and my oh-so-used-to-you brain] what the fuck man.. really..

OH WELL

GAWD I REALLY HAVE TO START ARRANGING MAYA..

oh, and my mum is so cute, i love her for loving me sia.. so sayang me.. make liang cha and ask me eat bird nest, touched man.. so i should really sleep earlier so i won't disappoint her.

Did i tell you?? Today, the sporty customer stank, and i think i brought home some of the smell. Sia la.

Tomorrow i gonna run w Pei Yun darlink ;D yay can't wait.. oh i have to wake upat like.. 7 am tomorrow SIAN AHHHHH...


Wooh wooh.. so refreshing to be really blogging again.. like a full and proper post ;) YAYAYAY hahah... Awrights . ttyl love! ILY


oh yeah, forgot to mention.. i most probably will be quitting this lovely service job at ssb in mid july.. sad la, but ive already promised my dad.. haiz.

AND I SWEAR RENDERING IS MANY PIECES OF INFINITE ASSES AND MY PHONE HAS GONE SOT .. FUCKHELL SOT.


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Monday, June 24, 2013

hey,hey, hey, maya is rendering very slowly.. takbuleh tahan!! Listening to Miley Cyrus' "we cant stop"


WE CAN'T STOP

It’s our party we can do what we want
It’s our party we can say what we want
It’s our party we can love who we want
We can kiss who we want
We can see who we want (2x)

Red cups and sweaty bodies everywhere
Hands in the air like we don’t care
Cause we came to have so much fun now
Got somebody here might get some now

If you’re not ready to go home
Can I get a hell no
Cause we gonna go all night
Till we see the sunlight alright

So la da di da di, we like to party
Dancing with Miley
Doing whatever we want
This is our house
This is our rules
And we can’t stop
And we won’t stop
Can’t you see it’s we who own the night
Can’t you see it we who bout’ that life
And we can’t stop
And we won’t stop
We run things, Things don’t run we
We don't take nothing from nobody

It’s our party we can do what we want
It’s our party we can say what we want
It’s our party we can love who we want
We can kiss who we want
We can see who we want

To my homegirls here with the big butts
Shaking it like we at a strip club
Remember only God can judge us
Forget the haters cause somebody loves ya
And everyone in line in the bathroom
Trying to get a line in the bathroom
We all so turnt up here
Getting turnt up yea yea

So la da di da di, we like to party
Dancing with Miley
Doing whatever we want
This is our house
This is our rules
And we can’t stop
And we won’t stop
Can’t you see it’s we who own the night
Can’t you see it we who bout’ that life
And we can’t stop
And we won’t stop
We run things
Things don’t run we
We don't take nothing from nobody

It’s our party we can do what we want
It’s our party we can say what we want
It’s our party we can love who we want
We can kiss who we want
We can see who we want

It’s our party we can do what we want to
It’s our house we can love who we want to
It’s our song we can sing if we want to
It’s my mouth I can say what I want to
Yea, Yea, Yeah

And we can’t stop
And we won’t stop
Can’t you see it’s we who own the night
Can’t you see it we who bout’ that life
And we can’t stop
And we won’t stop
We run things
Things don’t run we
We don't take nothing from nobody
Yea, Yea, Yea






Awright.. it's monday.. and i have work later.. apparently, Winnie's at cold war with me for something/ over something.. for all i know really...hmm... ytd night, i did maya till 3am? woke up at 8am today.. but i bet i didn't get 5 hrs of sleep.. first off, cus of maya.. my head was spinning like that rotating shit.. second.. i thot of ah jun...  i was brought back to our first date? Haha~ sweetmemories..but now bitter sweet..i was missing him..        i wonder if he does? well, obviously not..
gawd, so yeah.but i gotta remember there were times that didnt went well either, there were times i was disappointed by his intentional insensitivity~ Jeesh. watdevs really haha mving on quite well, moving boxes one by one eh.. i dont even know what are the boxes to move.. we didnt have anythig much between us anyway.
and during work, hahahha, he seems like his trying to show me that he is alright? idk haha its just damn weird. but lol, i know he is not.. but i doubt that its because of me :>

ANYWAY, im going to run with Peiyun dear tmr afternoon YAY. Gym Run RUN RUUUNNN..
MAYA is still loading.... slowly but not steadily....

got to remember to buy that pomegranate drink later ~~


complexion going down...
 time decreaseing...
 DRAW NOT DONE
PDP NOT DONE.. someone please kill me


Oh btw, the group has gone to find the tr. so yep, im kinda by my own in this area .. with the class ._.





Jerome Jarre is damn funny.. do check him out..
 he is super AWKUAD. hahaha xD


okay ttyl , write to you again if im bored.


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Sunday, June 16, 2013

kay awesome at home after holidays..wastin my time usin phone goin on websites squintin my eyes so hard i guess they are going blind soon.. hais.. i hav no idea wat to say first.. okay lets start with watever i have been doin lately.. well.. i guess a week ago i wanted to learn jap n was super dedicated to it for only like a few days than ( from 11/23/10)


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c0mments So yeah, so fuck.. he broke up with me.. I had a hard time dealing w it that night.. cried my self to sleep, second time in a row.. like fuck really. umm.. but I guess almost a month has passed and... what do you know? time does make it better.. I don't feel that troubled about it as I did as first.. soon, like in 2 weeks or so.. im going to quite ssb.. partially (just a tiny bit) because of him.. but the rest is really.. its for me.. im not an organized person, not someone who prioritizes smartly.. and now all the projects are coming up.. I really wan to do well, have time for friends and family...my thots are all over the place now.. argh....
so yeah.. first about that... then.. something else is bugging me.. I want to be friends with him.. but im not sure if I wanna do this because im not over him yet or what.. .. there was a point of time I was really determined that I want to be friends with him cause someone who actually likes me for me is hard to come back.. esp a guy..and then came a thought like .. well maybe he chose u cause you were an easy target.... hmm
 I have to admit, it was assuring when we were together.. that feeling of assurance gave me courage and strength to do what im doing..but apparently that's not the right way to do stuffs.. I mean hey, ive got friends and family around me that is willing to support me somethings that I do.. hmm. an to be honest, I didn't feel beautiful when I was him.. like he was always putting me down and that suck.. a lot I mean hello? I don't even feel like your gf? but yeah for a few moments  I did feel special... haha..  but he is ignoring me nao... okay,, for one I don't care if he think im desperate.. I really am not .. I just don't want this connect to be lost just because of a breakup.. im not going back to him.. I just don't want to have a bad friction like thing with him.. don't want to make life hard for me u see? Hahaa yes, he is my first love and hey, the more time we spent together, the longer I convinced myself I wouldn't let him go, no matter how hard it was.. but that was stupid.. I should have stood up.. and not back down and give in.. like fuck..it totally showed him tt I was someone who gives in too easily.. but I didn't want to loose him you see? but I guess if he is willing to be my friend.. its gonna be slightly easier.. cause I didn't have him so I didn't have to loose him.. but I guess he would get it.. he doesn't seem the kind to understand it... but I will give it a try.. I don't want to regret not doin it LOL HAHA aright, I should really start on my work.. MAYA.. im clueless about it sia...=.=but awright im gonna try before I give up GOGOGO!!!
oh another thing.. Im kinda worried on how my dad is gonna gimme my pocket money after I quit my job GAWD......

I really love y life alright? I just wna get stronger, more balanced and stable.. so happy that im able to log in to you dear bloggie! <3 font="">
Till next time *muah*


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