Friday, December 13, 2013

and I was initially convinced that I wasn't affected much by your actions

I knew unfollowing me on Twitter and Insta meant that u really didn't need to know updates about me
you literally wanted to get as far away from me as possible.

I thought I took it well, I thought it didn't matter much.

I pushed thoughts away as much as possible

because I have no flipping clue what was going through that mind of yours

I called, I texted, I apologized


this is like my second time being forcefully coldly rejected by people I actually cared about and loved and made time for


how would I know if your recent tweets might have been directed at me.

I didn't want to read too much into things,

I didn't wanna assume

I didn't wna get my hopes up

thinking that you'd still actually thought about the situation too

all I know is that u really didn't wna care

but apparently


you're still worked up abt the situation for
some reasons of yours


but I have no idea

no idea at all


it's only tonight that I realized you've unfriend me on facebook as well?










if you're hating on me and determined to leave me

why would I wna show u how weak I was about it?

no matter how unaffected I may seem abt it

it's

Definitely a front

why would I show someone who is against and not for me my weak side?

wouldn't that be dumb?


I don't know man




















so tonight, i'm hurt 
I definitely am

and I don't have a room to go to
 to hide my tears

now my family is asking what's wrong

and it'll be so troublesome to explain












im just really tired for holding up this front
















all I know is that I need God more than ever now


i played a melody at 10:59 PM
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