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Friday, December 27, 2013

Hey, missed me?

haha I bet not, but whatevs. hahah ~

anyway, sigh.

I dont know where to start because I have no idea what's going on.

But im just having a conflict in my mind , which I don't think I should have but
it's there.

Anyway before I start ranting, updating, feeling, overflowing..

I'm listenin' to James Blunt on spotify, Album- All the Lost Souls

Haha it's good, next to James Morrison's :)
1973 is mah fav :))

Here's the lyrics:

Simona
You're getting older
Your journey's been
Etched on your skin
Simona
Wish I had known that
What seemed so strong
Has been and gone
[Chorus:]
I would call you up every saturday night
And we both stayed out 'til the morning light
And we sang, "Here we go again"
And though time goes by
I will always be
In a club with you
In 1973
Singing "Here we go again"
Simona
Wish I was sober
So I could see clearly now
The rain has gone
Simona
I guess it's over
My memory plays our tune
The same old song
[Chorus x3]
And though time goes by
I will always be
In a club with you
In 1973

Hahaha oh and here's what is playing and I like as well

Same Mistake

Saw the world turning in my sheets and once again I cannot sleep.
Walk out the door and up the street; look at the stars beneath my feet.
Remember rights that I did wrong, so here I go.
Hello, hello. There is no place I cannot go.
My mind is muddy but my heart is heavy. Does it show?
I lose the track that loses me, so here I go.
And so I sent some men to fight, and one came back at dead of night.
Said he'd seen my enemy. Said he looked just like me,
So I set out to cut myself and here I go.
I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
'Cause I'll just make the same mistake again.
And maybe someday we will meet, and maybe talk and not just speak.
Don't buy the promises 'cause, there are no promises I keep.
And my reflection troubles me, so here I go.
I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
'Cause I'll just make the same mistake,
I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
'Cause I'll just make the same mistake again.
Saw the world turning in my sheets and once again I cannot sleep.
Walk out the door and up the street; look at the stars.
Look at the stars fall down.
And wonder where did I go wrong.

I think i'll just blog till my laptop is about to die

nothing new abt the situation,cept that im blocked, haha im sorry, yes, im aware

but whatever

i dont need this bullshit anyway

it cant be helped

i'll just be patient and well, its God's timing

well yeah, i may feel unhappy uneasy about it but i cant do anything about it

Haha wow current song wait i needa get the lyrics waiitttt...

"I Can't Hear The Music"

Is it a warning? Is it an evil sign?
Is it a people who have lost their mind?
Is it the Darkness? Is it a man resigned?
Is it a best friend leaving you behind?
Is it ever gonna stop? Will they ever let you go?
You're in a rush, they don't care enough 'cause their lives are very slow.
Time is ticking on. You don't get a second shot,
And when you sell your soul for a leading role, will The Lost Souls be forgot?
And if I can't hear the music and the audience is gone,
I'll dance here on my own.
And I hope the Lonely Hearts' Club Band will play out one last song,
Before the sun goes down.
And is it envy? Should it really make you sick?
Is now the time that you realise you'd better get out quick?
'Cause time is ticking on too long to fake your smile,
But then you sold your soul for a leading role, so wear it for a while.
And if I can't hear the music and the audience is gone,
I'll dance here on my own.
And I hope the Lonely Hearts' Club Band will play out one last song,
Before the sun goes down,
And there she goes. And there she goes.
So run, Yoshimi, run. 'Cause Billy's got himself a gun,
And you're right to be afraid: they'll send you to your grave
'Cause you're strange and new.
So run, Yoshimi, run. 'Cause Billy's got himself a gun,
And you're right to be afraid: they'll send you to your grave
'Cause you're strange and new.
And if I can't hear the music and the audience is gone, I'll dance.

Hahaha i'm stronger now, abit, at least i dont break down when i realized u blocked me, just stinging , the feeling is just stinging.

i guess it's for the better right?

i hope u do feel better whatever youre doing to find peace w yourself

i m trying as well, but not in the same way as u are

haha that is something i guess i wouldnt bear to do even to my ex.

stupid but ha.

im strong enough, my God's strong enough to help me through this

I wna see how bad this thing can bring me down,

and i wanna say its doing a great job so far,

im procrastinating because im so conflicted i cant do anything else

once im at home, on social media

i just

overthink

choke myself up w so much shitty emotions

hmmmm

were u reading my blog? because before u blocked me on twitter, u were tweeting such familiar phrases that i just had to check

maybe u did, then again maybe u didnt

and it is just me over thinking

Aish, overthinking dont help here..

Anyway, ive let this affect me on my xmas week, how great , hope the new year is better HAHA

although it does not even feel like a new year anymore

ugh

hmm
this year's celebration was lacking in so many family members

:/ that's quite a sad sight, but there's an additional : Lovelle :) So cuutteeeeee

then i went to stroll (SQUEEZED) along orchard w huishi dear after twg .. it couldve been more amazing because the lights this year wasnt that nice and there wasnt awesome performances ahah

then i went to watch 47 ronin w Regina today, So happy to see her!!!! :)))) heehee and yeah gna watch hobbit next time.. im dying.. i wan hobbit :((((((((

i want to buff my nails

and cut it hahaha

Hey world's wonderful but i cant really feel that some how

which leads tooooo ... James Morrison's

WONDERFUL WORLD

I've been down so low people look at me and they know
They can tell something is wrong, like I don't belong
Well, staring through a window
Standing outside there just too happy to care
Tonight I wanna be like them but I'll mess it up again
I tripped on my way in, got kicked outside everybody saw

And I know that it's a wonderful world but I can't feel it right now
Well, I thought that I was doing well but I just want to cry now
Well, I know that it's a wonderful world from the sky down to the sea
But I can only see it when you're here, here with me

Sometimes I feel so full of love, it just comes spilling out
It's uncomfortable to see I give it away too easily
But if I had someone I would do anything
And never, never, never let you feel alone
I won't, I won't leave you on your own
But who am I to dream? Dreams are for fools, they'll let you down

When I know that it's a wonderful world but I can't feel it right now
But I thought that I was doing well but I just want to cry now
Well, I know that it's a wonderful world from the sky down to the sea
But I can only see when you're here, here with me

And I wish that I could make it better
I'd give anything for you to call me
Maybe just a little letter, oh, it could start again, oh

Well, I know that it's a wonderful world but I can't feel it right now
Well, I thought that I was doing well but I just want to cry now
Well, I know that it's a wonderful world from the sky down to the sea
But I can only see when you're here, here with me, oh

And I know that it's a wonderful world, I can't feel it right now
I've got all the right clothes to wear, I just wanna cry now, cry now
Well, I know that it's a wonderful world from the sky down to the sea
But I can only see when you're here, here with me
And I know that it's a wonderful world when you're with me

Messy messy lyrics but ah~,

Im feeling a little more encourage now, i will not torture myself because of you, or the fact that u under torture of ur own mind hurts me as well, it not that i dont care

i wish there was i way for me to help u remove it , that overthinking part

but i cant and i dont know how

so im gonna heal myself first, before i can learn how to help others,
i gotta tend to my self

i need healing and comfort as well

back to you God :)

Have a nice life , y'all.

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