UGH!!!! SERIOUSLY!! Just because i did not freakin maintain my position in class, my freakin FishPOP keeps nagging and shouting me about it!! I freakin can't stand it any longer!! ARGH!! I'm Freakin pissed and irritated, i know i've not done as good as before but at least i tried my best. My stupid Dad keeps scolding me about , i 've just came back from that corporals' camp and now you're doin this to me, WHAT THE HELL IS YOUR PROBLEM, MAN!!! you were the one who told me at least i gave my best in the exam and freakin not to worry, NOW WHAT??!! you Blame me for not scoring to my standards?? I know it is my fault for not doin as well as before, But Mind You, I M NOT SOME SUPER BRAINY KID  OF YOURS  WHO WILL ALWAYS SCORE TOP 3 in Class WHATEVER SHIT YOU THINK I AM! SO STOP EXPECTIN ME TO BE LIKE THAT AND BLAME ME FOR NOT SCORING WELL.. I'M THE ONE WHO'S TAKIN THAT DAMN EXAM , NOT YOU!! SO SHUT YOUR CRAP!! T.T 

 Oh man. i only said that because i was stress and annoyed.. i really cannot stand it, i really did not mean what i said.. ToT and my freakin brother told my father about it.. ARGH!!! NOW to match my Ruined soul, im listening to metal.. i've never listened to metal. ;( haiz.. guess i should forget it. since i've just cam eback from camp , GB camp and everything.. haiz..  i guessed i've calmed down.. i really didnt mean what i said about my dad..but i really wna post how i feel.. :( i know he was doin it for my good... something like Darry in the Outsiders.. but i really dont like my bro though

the camp was okay , i've made new friends in the camp .. i really dont wna talk now..

next time kids.

Okay, what can i say?? i was like freaking pissed just now for some reason.. which i will say later.. so yeah, it's been such a long time since I've posted anything. LOL. Haiz.. so yeah.. today.. morning..almost late. but still okay. uh.. hist.. managed to solve the Puzzle Mr Brady gave the class.. the answer is " Lee Kuan Yew was born in a Large and Airy Bungalow. His Grandfather gave him the name "Harry"." Haha.. cool huh?? i like to solve this kinda puzzles XD. And there was this Class List that ppl wrote their marks in.. i forgot to pass it to Mr Brady.. so it's still with me.. =.=  After that, science.. did nothing much though.. Read Gossip Girl for a while..then , um, suddenly A came to me and told me that she had to tell me something, and that something was that.. She was already in a Group for that Literature thing.. and the sad thing was..it was already full.. so that means i wasn't included.. She told me that there was only 2 girls in that group.. her and C. the other 6 were guys.. Sure, i was kind of disappointed that i wasn't in the Group with A.. But, i don't wna be a bitch abt it right? Right?? so yeah.. Told her it was okay and everything.. even though ...you know.. So yeah.. i Emo-ed at my table for quite awhile.. Prayed that i would be able to control my emotions.. not let it get to me, those kind of stuffs. i just don't wna be mad at my friend and lose her and cause awkwardness btwn us because of this dumb group stuff, though i might feel kind of hurt .. so, no matter what, i'll try.. control.. and keep the peace. :) A while later, some random teacher came to our class and called for me and Jasmine..it was for the Korea trip thing.. i have not paid $300 for the down payment because we currently haven't got the money to do so. Am thinking of not going to the trip anymore.. that reminds me of this coming Friday.. My clique going to eat at "Sakura" to celebrate "Last Day of School" and we each have to bring $12 for it.. i guess i would not be going for that too.. haiz.. I've not paid for that $11 thing to RJ too.. Argh.. you can't buy everything with money, but without money, you can't buy anything! haiz.. Then i went to the place Where Meiling is sitting.. and asked her if she had a group for Lit already.. she told me that she had but it was already full.Wow. Guess.. ima the last one to be picked for that Lit thing?? cus if they want 8 ppl in a grp, our class have 41 ppl.. and there's gonna be one group who has 9 members.. oh man, ima gna  be left out again.. rejected twice.. How bad is that?? i bet other groups already had their 8 .. and ima like the last unpicked shit. ): During recess, went to library. Did nothing much.. except talked to XY, CY and S. Lol. Maths.. man.. too many pro people in Class ler.. score 90+ some more.. JS 100! PW, teacher showed us gross, sick video of a poor dead Whale bein Freakin cut up by that woman, man, i could not look on any longer, so i took out my gossip girl and continue reading.. treating my friends' "eww!! GROSS!!! Sick!!=.=" as some random background music or birds chirpin. LOL. but it was seriously a pain to see a poor dead whale bein dissected like that.. ): ESP, validation.. nice clip :) 

After that, me and CY have got saluting and serving to do.. sian.. Saluting was okay.. except that i had to use the BBs' Gloves which were(no offence) quite dirty... and the wool or cotton inside keeps coming out.. sticks to your hand :(  i sneezed so many times. then serving  bad bad bad.. i dropped the food dunno how many times becus i was nervous.. couldn't have a good grip LOL. after that, it was about 7pm when we  finished. Tired.. imagine walking around for hours in your Freaking boots .. now there;s blisters on my legs.. i even da bao for my family.. haha :) walked abit with CY,CP and A.. they were chatting hysterically.. CY did not forget me.. which was okay.. cus i really felt kind of left out.. but i was busy then.. when we were at the junction, and the traffic light was about to go green, i tried to tell them that i was going to take the bus.. so  i won;t be walking the same way as they were..once i tried, next i shouted.. but i was so tired, it was barely my shouting voice.. i gave up in anger and walked off. i bet they didn't even notice that i was not around.. they were still laughing as i left, made no reply..i was about to cry.. but i did not..who would? when i reached home, my mum nagged at me like idk what to wash my undergarments.. UGH!! i was already so annoyed and pissed and she's still there annoying the heck out of me.. i was on the verge of screaming.. but i could not.. it was not her fault that i was feeling mad in the first place.. but she should at least under that i was tired.. REally tired.. LUckily, my dad came to the rescue.. And so yeah.. though family mems did not thank me for da bao -ing, i hope they like the food.

that's  all for now, that was a long post wasn't it??

"Come what come may, time and the hour runs through the roughest day" -Macbeth, :)

it's been such a long time since my previous post.. and tmrw will be the MYE main paper oh no... LIT AND ORAL.. can die de.. haiz..  i still very slack lar.. later got tuition somemore...JYS PEEPUL.. lol..

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