Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Okay I am back! Haha taking one of the many rests I've taken from doing Maya .. seriously man.. never ending work for Maya :(((  I keep going onto social media.. such a huge distraction..

anyway, there's many many things I wna update about

1.) My current situation with Daddy dearest (not a good one)
>> then again I maybe including the whole update of today
2.) my realization of conditions also abit of unconditional love.. thanks to Mark Grungor (a comedic pastor
3.) Experience as an F1 cleaner and the people I met
4.)Getting to know God - Being Raw
5.) Random thoughts in between Posts hahaha


Hmm I doubt ill be able to update much at this timing.. 11.30 pm liao


Today... watched Mark's Videos all morning, laughed my head off but learned  quite a few things (which I have forgotten because I didn't take them down)
Then I went for cello with Christabel and realized I had a misconception about the notes and strings of cello.. HAHHA learnt part of Joy to the World today (: Can't for this Friday to further practice it. LOL I really need to learn to sight read.

then when I went home.. I continued SM-ing( Social Media - i'd be using this abbrev for many of my posts).. which is a waste or alot of my time.. I know I was supposed to start on Maya but I guess no matter how early I started, I still wont complete much.. SIGHPIE Holidays are almost over and I know that...

Sian I've got tuition tomorrow.. Bernice and Irene for Maths then Ming Shun for English
I'll do Maya in the morning...
I doubt i'll be running anytime soon though.. I wanna jio Chermaine to jog with me but her stamina and abilities way higher than mine.. I don't wna slow her down or under perform sia.

Okay, so about tonight, my Dad misunderstood my tone and what I said when I said he could "turn off the kitchen's lights" if he thought that I was wasting HIS electricity (yeah, he specifically said HIS) by doing work in the storeroom.. I need my own place to do work please.. if not I can never get into the mood. OK so let me say the reason he might say this in cover of his actual motive

He didn't like it when I'm doing work in a place where he couldn't see what I'm doing, so he is finding ways to get me out of the room, out of the corner, the storeroom so he can check on what I'm am doing ... like bitch please (I was really trying hard to NOT use this phrase cause it makes me sound really cocky..but wahh the rage..) HE is the one watching all those stuff on is S3 that he thinks I watch.. no fucking way..I'm a changed person since my experience with hardcore yaoi. (LOL yeah, I only can take mild.. too explicit I don't like) And guess what, he took what I said to sound like I was saying it in a way that he was stupid for not thinking of it or I was just rebelling against him and wants to go against him and all. And he went all vulgar wanting me to switch my place to the kitchen table.. But hey every single time I do that, people will be talking to me , telling me to do this and do that for them because I was close to certain things.. not that I don't wanna help, but I want to do what im doing yeah? I know I sound selfish but I really don't like to be interrupting when I'm doing my things halfway, it's irritating..

yeah distractions like this gets to me and then he had to go on and on about my lanjiao character and he was the one over the family and how I was being disrespectful by suggesting he could turn off the kitchen lights .. his reason: it has always been on and there is no reason why he should turn it off just because I say so..he gets so worked up over these things like .. he always says he is open to suggestions, but when we actually suggests something, he just shoots it off by saying that we are arguing with him and he doesn't like what we do or how we say or what we say just because he doesn't like what he sees. MEH.. really I can't make him see things because i'm easily swayed , affected and influenced by emotions.. I should really learn to keep them in check and in control..

LOL in the end I only managed to cover what happened today.. Aww, that's kinda sad.. I'll continue tomorrow (: have a nice night ya'll.

Singapore has been smoking hawt these few nights..

I foresee human BBQ.










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